Feeling Financially Insecure..need Help

freinds ..this is my first post..sorry if done any mistakes..it has been 5 years of our marriage(4 years baby girl)..after marriage DH went onsite 3 months..that time i stayed with mom.AND..MIL...after he came back..resigned job & we moved to banglore..was carrying so my MIL came with me..and hubby's sister daughter (engg..) alsoo stayed with us..my hubby is 3rd son..he is very much attached to his family..he always invite their relatives to home during weekend for lunch and dinn...my all days went in cooking and washing and cleaning..there was no privacy for us..my hubby is less expressive..and 1 year back we came onsite..am happy but my hubby wanted to go back reason is he cant live without his family..in his family he have 2 elder sisters(6kids).1 younger brother(married).they all stay in nearby village of my hubby..earlier they were struggling to settle..when we got engaged..my dad given some money,gold.all the house applia like washing machine ..LED.Tv...so on.(.am sentimental about my dad gifts)...elder SIL and her husband makes rule for all and even small thing..(for me no right to purchase and sell even my things).they took loan by keeping jwelleries and took plot in same village..and again loan for car..( for BIL)..loan for BIL marriage..so on my hubby interested to buy an apartment..but all the money is spending on buying gifts for loan..movie trip.. all kids and members..all gifts given by my parents is given to his brother family while coming onsite....gold jwellery with MIL ..his sister helped him when he was studying so he never crosses her order..
freinds... my problem is i feel sometime financially insecure..i dont have single rupee ..he only buy for me..if i tell him to save money.for kid..something against his family he get angry on me and tell me to go mom house..sometime i feel frustrated and depressed ..i do self esteem ..am I wrong to SAY save money for kid??? or is this a jealous???
AFTER GOING BACK WANT TO WORK NOW AM stay at home mom.. he never care about my family ..no call nothing.freinds he always fight if i ask about money or else he loves me..he says me am cheap minded..(given everything to them..dont have single rupee also no account nothing..)..freinds any wrong am doing here..just wanted to clear my mind.expecting suggestion to clear my mind.. ..thank u..

 

thank u madhumagie
..I tried so many times to explain him ..i dont know how to do drama...i talk whatever comes in mind directly to my hubby.HE NEVER TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I WANTED TO tell HIM...INSTEAD HE TAKE IT AS AM GOING AGAINST HIS FAMILY...he is not at all expressive but dominant nature person..am introvert .dont hurt others means MIL.FIL whatever they say i do it always ..after going back again his SIL 2 daughters (studying engee) planned to stay with us in banglore..i want to do job..if all people will be there than i cant manage anything...i cant go against what he decided..so feeling .. earlier we dint get privacy bec always so many were with us..I THINK THAT WAS A BIG MISTAKE WE DID THATSY STIL HE IS UNABLE TO UNDESTAND ME...EVEN AM NOT INTERESTED TO LIVE SEPARATELY I WANT COMBINED FAMILY ONLY.....TOO MUCH IS TOOO MUCH.he is transferring money to them if iask 5000 also he says no .. u dont know how to use it...bla bla bla..HIS BIG FAMILY and SATISFY EVERYONE NEEDS ..NOTHING IS REMAINING FOR US...WHEN I STARTED TO SUPPORT him in his welbeing he is doing more than earlier not less..so am totally confused ..am pampered at mom house becouse am single kid..not have any sisters for any guidance .just sufferingin mind ..becouse dont know how to ease the problem..if i say something than he says u dont know how much they love u...is that a real love than y they expect .SIL always poke their nose in my life ..like u r dark coloured my brother simply married u..not working my brother not getting any support from u..bla bla bla

 

not in laws everything given to BIL family they stay in other place ...my hubby transported EVERYTHING FROM BANGLORE TO OTHER CITY 13 HOUR JOURNEY..i asked him but he was not ready to listen me..now we cant ask anything back...FOR GOLD MY mil IS THE LOCKER WHENEVER SHE GIVES WE HAVE TO WEAR..IF I ASK HIM ABOUT THIS THAN HE SAYS IF U WANT UR ALL THINGS THAN GO TO UR HOUSE WITH ALL UR THINGS..

 

WILL TRY NEXT TIME THANK U..