Need help wonderful ladies... I don't want divorce but I can find it lurking around the corner. My mil has bad mouthed me in every possible way for 15 years. Till recently I used cry silently and make adjustments. But now a days, when she bad mouths me, I feel getting chest constricted and goiNg dizzy. I have this strong impulse to shut her mouth by kicking onto her face. Now about my husband - even if he is a good guy, mil makes sure she brings out monster out of him. Even though he does not believe her every whim, he makes sure all her orders and needs are looked after. He tries to justify his mother's bad behaviour. Once he had hit me at her bidding and still keeps saying that I deserved it. About my parents - they love me so much. But they have taken all kind of wrong decisions with me. They did not allow me to leave my husband. They want me to make sacrifices so that their SonIL keep good relations with them. ( My husband maintains this strategy.. whenever I oppose my ILs, he starts bad mouthing my relatives) He can call anything to my brothers, who give him so much respect. but I cannot say anything about his brother who is the worst brother anyone can have. Hardly gives him any respect. About me.. I don't want to see mil face again after her last 4 hours of bad mouthing me. I don't want to break my family too.. I keep trying to bring peace into the family but finally I get blamed for everything. If I oppose mil, divorce is for sure. My husband is best SON any parents can have. Unfortunately it is not vice versa. They never cared abt hus feelings and happiness Too many bitter emotions in family.. its like me and husband both have become empty shells.