hi it has been long time that i did not write any thing. you all know about my problems from my last posts. http://www.indusladies.com/forums/married-life/78994-am-i-becoming-abnormal.html now i am going to india in may end and start job or practice. i wanted to say thank you for all your replies. seriously, i never expected so many replies to my posts. many times i think what did my husband get after doing all these bad things to me? i dont love him . he knew this. i do my daily duties. when i go back, i will involve myself in job and my daughter. then i will be more far away from him. not physically. but my mind will not involve with him.if i were only daughter to my parents , i would have been seperated from him long back. so i wonder how could my husband live with me when he knew i have so much hatred for him. i know , he never divorce me. but then why did not he show his love? just thoughts. anyways even though he behaves good now i will never love him. in the initial years i was with him for my parents sake and now for my daughter. but i have this question dont men feel that there should be someone who love them? if yes then why do they give so much pain to other?