Hi Indu ma'am, I wanted to respond to your earlier thread also. The only thing which strikes me when i read your posts are that you are still stuck in the past. Or your husband is making sure you are. Inspite of having your daughter married and settled and living comfortably, you are still made to question your past choices. I feel its high time you come out of this. IMHO all your problems that you ate currently facing are coz of yourself. People around you are making you feel insecure. Maybe because they are insecure when they see you made it so far good or when they see you happy?!? Specially when you are old or these days age doesnt matter, its always easy to pass judgement and give free advise. Just coz its free doesnt mean its wonderful. Its the opposite of that. I would usually suggest you to give it back to these people but i ask you to do only one thing now to begin with. Can you play deaf whenever your husband or anyone talks anything about past or dig up the past or try to talk unnecessary things? If playing deaf is hard for you, just calmly get up and walk away from the room. You are not answerable to anyone specially to your husband or brother. Just keep doing this until you able to tune them out. Just get up and walk away. I know it might look simple to me when i am writing this but it would be a hard thing for you. Please dont get stuck in the past loop. Its a never ending loop which has no way out until you decide to find a way. Walk out on them until you tune out their outbursts which they are doing to make you feel small. Your husband knows that he is responsible partly for the mess but to make himself feel better and you miserable he is doing these things. Make peace with the past. Yes, bad things happened with your daughter but things are better now. Actually your daughter is out of that past and living a happy life now but you are still stuck there. Pls dont make your life a hell by living through the past horrors again and again. Whatever happened is over. Done. Dont go over it. Its not worth it. I recommend you to try and stay away from your husband. Go for a walk alone, try and take up hobbies which you wanted to try for sometime. If you love reading, get yourself a library membership. If nothing works, just lock yourself in the room alone and listen to your fav music or watch your fav movie. I feel the more time you spend alone, the more you will feel better, stronger and more confident. Let goddess Durga bless you with the courage you need to overcome this obstacle.