If someone can help me make sense of my situation and offer sound advice, I'd really appreciate it. I'll try to be brief. It's been months since I've been job hunting after graduation with no luck. I was recently told by my family that I had to find a job and live with them (older siblings) until I get married. If I were to live on my own, then my parents would live with me. If I decided to do anything else, then basically I would receive no support and be disowned. Living with my family is not good because they are difficult to live with and in one sense, toxic. I say this because I am emotionally drained and wrecked with having to put up with them for years, and it has affected all aspects of my life. I come from a strict Christian Indian background, so I'm not allowed to mingle with people outside of church, make my own decisions, be independent or live life the way I want. It's a very depressing and controlled life that I lead, and I'm unbearably miserable. Though my time in college was tough, it was the only good time I had away from home, where I had a chance to make mistakes, learn and grow. Honestly speaking, I've never experienced the kind of support or comfort of a family. All I've gotten over the years is criticism, guilt trips and disapproval of every decision I've made and interests I've wanted to pursue. My question is, what do I do to improve things? I've tried talking to my family, but they shut me down by saying the problems exist because I'm rebellious. There's just no reasoning with them. Several times I've thought of going to my college town, staying with a friend or two for couple months, taking up any job, and trying to be independent. If I do this, I would be cutting off my bond with the family. I can never set foot in our church again, face the people we know, or find a good Christian husband. I feel like I need to be away from this environment to help myself heal, mingle with other people, and try to build a career. I feel so torn, and I'm wondering if this is worth losing face and my family? Do you think eventually they would come around, if they see that I succeed and I'm doing okay? But it's my fear that with no real world experience and them constantly telling me that if I don't do what they say, that I'll fail. I'm so confused, I don't know what to think or do. Please help me figure out what to make of this, understand what's true and what's not, and practical steps I can take to help myself.