I was a very highly motivated, competitive person during my teens.I used to have so much fear to stand on stage and give performances in school and college.I craved that recognition.However,the claps and people appreciating me after the performances were over gave me such a high. When I came to US after wedding,I was friends with a group of ladies where there was severe competition ranging from who looked the best,who was the thinnest,who was talented etc etc..It was so energy draining but I guess the younger years were that way I tried my best to be popular(?) lol and I got it in a negative way.There was so much jealousy and backbiting amongst us.One good thing about me If I can say,I did not get backbiting coz my focus was only to be recognized but of course even it came with a lot of flak. Just being brutally honest. Relatives were no less.Who was richer, who got the bigger house, who travelled a lot.. Infact,many did not like me coming abroad.Even they tried to jeopardize my marriage with my husband which was a different story. Anyways,After kid came into the picture..I kind of got a realization that none of the above mattered much but still was not there..It was hard when my relatives compared weight,color,height of the kid and why I did not lose weight coz I was a lot into fitness etc. A little later I started to relax a lot more.Cut off toxic friendships,anything which did not serve me,started understanding MY reality and what I actually wanted,stopped comparing and finally limited my realtives. Honestly..my life is good only now.It took such a long time to realize this.I do not do anything anymore for recognition coz I think the right people will like us for who we are and the rest do not matter. Biggest benefit is I was off social media coz instagram and facebook in most cases atleast the ones I personally knew were a total different reel VS real Wanted to journal the above. I am sure we all have been competitive and craved recognition but it is human nature and for our peace of mind, it is good to lessen it.It is not that one is not motivated or stopped living but focusing all our energy on things which really matters to us is more important.When did your competitive spirit end?Or were you always the kind of person who lived for yourself and cared two hoots for what others think?