Can't You Make Up Your Mind? What Mind? Oh Well, Never Mind!!!!!

[JUSTIFY]I have a tough time these days making up my mind or what little of it I possess. Why, you want to know, do I want to talk about non-existent or nearly non-existent things like the rabbit's horn, the common sense of the common people, Satchi's mind etc. Well, it was a chance comment by our friend Bhavana in her feedback to my last snippet that brought me to talk about it. So blame her for it if you have any problem with this snippet of mine. Well, coming back to the point (this little mind does tend to wander a lot, doesn't it????? :rant), I am quite sure this has been some diabolical plot hatched by the One Above, who decided (S)He wanted to entertain Her(Him)self.

It all started off pretty early on in life ..... or may be I should be more precise, well before life actually began. I am told (never mind who told me, I am hard pressed to remember facts which transpired so long ago. Straining the little bit of grey matter which has still remained unaffected by biological and chronological age will cause a rapid loss of the same. I am quite convinced the theory "use it or lose it" does not apply in the matter of my said grey matter). Anyway, coming back to the point, I am told the dice were being cast and I was given a chance to decide whether I wanted to spend this avatar as a male or a female. In a manner that was a portent of things to come, I started dithering and changing my mind as the clock kept ticking, much in the manner of the "sui muiji" of KBC fame and the needle kept swinging on the dial in front of me. :spin Time and tide, it is said waits for no man, nor does it for that matter for any woman - no, not even for the soul aspiring to be a man or a woman. So it came about that the needle swung towards girl and the buzzer went off. My fate was sealed. The decision was made for me. That was only the beginning. As a voice said to me "Aage aage dekho hota hai kya" (Just wait and watch what happens in future).

My childhood saw me facing more such problems when faced with major life threatening decisions such as whether to have butter on my bread or not, would I prefer strawberry jam on my bread or would I like mango jam ..... (The "puddings and pies said Jane, which would you rather said her father, both cried Jane quite bold and plain" formula never worked for me :-( I was landed with a toughie for a mother, who would never allow such a digression from the rules - one meant one, no meant no etc.) :help These days I find myself wondering whether I want to eat or not. If I opt for the former (which happens almost all the time) it is whether I want to eat "regular" food or would I prefer to eat a sandwich ...... Ufff ..... I tell you, life is so tough. :drowning

The years in between saw me dithering on the topic of what subject to study - arts or science, commerce, or nothing (which I admit I would have preferred but was too proud to admit). So I solved the problem by doing a bit of everything. :bonk The net result was I was what a friend termed to be a "nitya vidyarthi" (permanent students). He probably meant it in a mocking or teasing manner. But it was alright. Are we not all nitya vidyarthis of this school called life?

Many years were spent on deciding whether to get married or to sit on that comfortable shelf and watch the world go by. Then came the question of whether various eligible candidates were suitable or not. Ultimately Life came along and shoved me into my present status where I complete 16 years tomorrow and am still trying to find my bearings. :shock:

So you see, such so-called "ageing calamities" start off pretty early on in life. That is probably because we start "ageing" the moment we were born, never mind what some scientists tell us about living life in reverse gear. That they intensify with age and "that stage of life" (whether it be male or female) is quite another matter.

Add to this problem of indecision, the problem of forgetfulness is quite another story. I have already said plenty about this matter. (http://www.indusladies.com/forums/snippets-of-life-non-fiction/122268-what-i-just-about-do.html. It is worrying when I go for a bath and set about soaping my face only to still find my glasses on my map. Or for instance when I go to bed with my glasses on (all the better to dream with as the BH puts it), or when I put something somewhere, forget about it and then start blaming BH for moving my cheese. :bang

Now, I do sometimes wonder if Alzheimer's is catching. I am quite convinced it is and that I, for one, have "caught" it. I read about some blood test for it and even checked out with a very good lab in town whether they do the test. The receptionist had never heard the word and made me spell it out and got me so exasperated that I asked her to ask a doc in the lab if she did not know and she came back to tell me they did not do it yet. A psychiatrist (he visited us on a social basis, I did not go to him for a consultation, I assure you) gave me the good news that within the next 2-5 years there is going to be a drug to break down the evil proteins that cause Alzheimer's and there is already a blood test in the offing.

So on that note, I shall leave you and go wandering off wondering whether I need to have that test or not, how soon I shall need it and where I should wander off to, should the test turn out to be positive. :confused2:[/JUSTIFY]

 

Hi Syamala, thanks. Yes, Amma's improving health has taken a big weight off my mind. So has the fact that she is in good hands.

 

Hi Megalife,

Thanks a lot dear. Have kept the entire cake for you and am waiting for you to arrive. :-D

 

Hi Bhavna,

When are you coming over? There is one massive treat awaiting you. :-D Thanks a lot for the good wishes. Glad to belong to the same club as you and yes, the idea of a thread for the likes of us is a great idea. :-D