Hi, Its been long time now with kids at home and i feel so bad about myself not able to concentrate on anything related to office and so tried all the time. My older one is about to finish her grade remotely and toddler is super active right, screaming all the time morning to evening, demanding attention, TV or outside. I am the one doing everything for him. H either plays phone to him or screams. And he watches all the time anyways and he knows his dad is easy access so he goes to him. It is giving me lot of stress and i get anger bouts at him... I want to throw him ,push him.. when he does not stop crying on me, pulling me hitting me all the time... or pushing me from something constantly. Later i feel guilt but i am fully stressed out with my kids. We think about daycare but then find out some friend or another ( after vaccinated) contracting because kid was going to school or daycare. Some other friends also have kids at home, that makes me think, to keep mine also. Also, they have parents help but not us and my H is not as useful and patient as hers. And I am not as patient as her . On and Off i feel very positive but his screaming, not napping, resist to nap by constant scream, not going to bed on time, getting up running away, morning getting up early, again screaming for everything, lack of sleep makes me tired. My older one does not do her homework before 11. She does not get to it before 9.30 then keeps moving. So he won't sleep till there is full dark in the house. He is not sleeping as much he should. Same age kids sleep 12 hours but he sleeps 8 hours hardly, because of his new TV additiction. He knows bothering dad means TV. What to do. I am taking some time off next weekend, but house work/chores does not make it easy. Then my H without my consent is booking vacation. I want to rest but no.. each trip outside home tires me more, these days.