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What kind of girl is she. I just don't like her face. Every time I see her she is doing nothing at all. Just sleeping eating and watching TV. Still always try to show how busy she is. Oh god why I even have to look at her.

Who is she? A mother of two a wife a dil. What she do if does nothing? She wake up at 6 prepare breakfast lunch for her husband and kids. Send them to their work place. Then make tea and breakfast for herself and her mil. Then do the cleaning and other chore. Make lunch bring her kids back. Give them lunch change their clothes make them do their homework give tuition to small kids then make evening tea then dinner and finish her work by 12. This is her routine from past few years. She don't go out much don't take anything for her don't argue don't complaint now. Earlier she used to do but with time she learned no one cares. At every mistake husband will abuse no matter how tired or busy with multiple tasks she were. He will always say how could you? She avoid stating her needs and feelings. She can never be assertive and say no. Everyone was enjoying her services without looking at what she want.

She wanted to come out but everyone explains to her your kids are small and your first priority is kids. She too agree to it but were the kids belong to her only. If she talk everyone make faces to her as if she is saying senseless and if she remain quiet no one bother. Everything is killing her internal self. Happy from outside but empty inside. Try to laugh but couldn't. A very good but desolate life that she was living without any dreams and hope.

 

Thanks dear for understanding and replying. Its true. Every girl has to fight with these circumstances.

 

Once while taking the newspaper she found one pamphlet. She looked at it. It was of summer camp as summer vacations were about to come. She was planning to send her kids there and joining aerobic classes as she had put on a lot. She was very happy and discussed it with her H. He said OK whatever you want you can do I will pay for that. She felt like flying high but controlled her emotions to come out. She called up the school for the camp and note down the details. Now she was just planning about what she will do there and what clothes does she have to attend the classes. All plans were going on in her mind and she was avoiding to show it outside. But there was one more tension going in her mind.

The next day she wake up and went to the washroom. In few minutes she cried with disbelief and ran towards her H.

Wake up please. The test is positive.

H: don't worry I am with you.
She: but what will we do now? Kill that child or kill myself.
H: what are you saying. We will think about it. Don't get panic.
She left and continued with her daily chores with lots of tension in her mind. She is emotional and don't want to kill that baby but what about her own life.

Few months back she went to her house. Her mother once said your younger son doesn't have circle in her head he instead have pointed hairs at below which means if you do another baby it will be a girl. She laughed and said stop it. It will never happen. But still she started dreaming about a girl child. Was feeling like everything will be streamline if a girl come to their home. She will bring peace wealth and all the positive things with her. She just lost in her dreams and felt all the love for that.

At present she was in dilemma. At once she think about that dream. Other time she think about her life that she is not living from the day her kids are born. She don't want to kill the child and at the same time don't want to kill herself. What she should do now?

Can I ask what should be her decision? To keep or to abort. Please give your opinions about it.

 

She after thinking much about it decided to abort. Her H too got agreed to her decision. They decided to visit the doctor for that. She was by now very much sure about her decision. She with her h was waiting for her turn to the doctor and suddenly felt for it and started crying badly. They came out and discussed more about it.

H: what do you want?
She:I don't want to go for anything. Why should I abort and for keeping I won't be able to take proper care of this child without aggression and it will then effect the behavior of all the kids.
H: OK then be firm to your decision and stop crying.
They went inside. Their turn came very soon and now they were sitting in front of the doctor.
D: took all the details of the patient and told them that its just 32 days old. To abort the minimum time required is 35 days with pills and with operation it should be of 4 weeks. She suggested to come after a week. They took the instructions and came out. Spending one day with it was so difficult and now she becoming emotional as well as practical at different times. When she love her kids she cry with the feeling she will never be able to love the unborn but when she think about her condition with 2 kids then she don't have any doubt that she can't take a chance with third one. Still she knows the life that this kid has will live and everything is in the hands of god. Its life could be of a week a month or some 100 years. How the time will pass what will be her future time will only tell.

 

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