Single Bed room Apartment.....

Many times when I feel like escaping into my own world all I want is a place where I can just shut up for just few days .. this is such a wide world and I dont find one place where I can just go and live on my own ..
I maybe a different person from all of you or I might be present in every one of you all ..when all is well with me I am on top of the world happy go lucky type but when i am lost and lonely i wish to get to some place where i can be on my own ... with no one person around me just me and my lonliness.. doing wotever you want .. sleep all day read whatever you want..eat cook anything you like starve if you want to...
that independant freedom i want..
this is not for ever in life but just once in one or two months or three months..
I sit on system and start browsing where i can find such a place..
Haridwar, rishikesh are faar off places .. i am not so religious either... uttaranchal hmm but lots of naxalism...
down south rameswaram kanyakumari...wonderful places but wot two days i want to escape would be spend in travel...
away from all where on earth is this lonely place i am searching for...
will a single bedroom apartment do .. yes wow i like the idea cleaning is so easy when i throw all the junk but where will i get my purse is not so heavy and i cant afford its cost for just two days for one or three months..
pity india hasent developed that we ladies go to hotel and spend all alone for one or two days either ...
i sulken down to my mind my silence in sleep with a desire to be alone ... with all around watching a cricket match between india and srilanka shouting happily .... why do i want to alone i question myself throw my silence maybe after a while i will wake and watch the match trying to get back to normalcy .. in heart of heart thinking i am a gone case ...........

 

jaya...thanks for understanding the feeling i want to be alone honestly.. i like to be alone and enjoy my lonliness..
foolish isnt it
radha

 

dear vijji garu
we both have been friends for many years now ) and share differences in this opinion i think i told you about my feeling of running away from all many times and i have done this many times also but still unless u enjoy it u wont knw
read a novel without sleeping all nite and sleep all day and tell me if u like it or not )
i am mad having such small small likings
which can be done only in lonliness
love
radha