he is a tolerable husband?

Desilady,
I have also learnt it now, after so much of pain. His words against me were like knife in my soul. He was always saying that he could got married a beautiful indian lady but he did the big mistake to marry me. I convinced me during our 4 years relationship that I am a bad person, a bad wife.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me

 

Thank you everybody for your support.
I appreciate it very much.

 

Sorry,
if I am writing again. I need to talk and I am alone at the moment. I left the house where I spent 6 years of my life. I loved that house. When I moved in I was so in love, so happy. He promised so many "big" things: a peaceful life, a lovely baby, nice moments to spend together. I know every small stone of that house. I had nice moments in that house. Before marriage I was the queen of his hurt and slowly slowly I become the his biggest mistake.
Today he has sent my 2000 sms, he called many times. I didn't take the phone. He thinks that I am wrong and that I am destroying two lives, that he will change that I am his life. I don't want to suffer any more! Somebody who loves you don't tell you that you are a big mistake, doesn't throw things on the floor, doesn't get angry if doesn't like the dinner, doesn't consider having a baby with you a mistake. For my mental peace I want to stay alone!