Poem from an amateur divorcee!!

pursuit2liife · Sep 14, 2010

Sorry guys I may not be a good writer but just felt like putting across my feelings in the form of a little poem!! My divorce is going on and that's what has made me a lil poetic....
You came to my life…with a strong belief that life will be better than best,
And I was assured that I can have at least this much trust…
That you adored me and considered me better than the rest,
What has happened now..why I was east to you always, and you treated yourself west???

I always felt I was good for nothing,
But with this new life, got a little confidence that even I could do something…
Guess God had other things in mind for me unfortunately,
To make me further realize that I have no right to live candidly…

Wonder if something called real trust even exists,
Where your spouse says he will always be there with you against all thick n thins…
You fall sick, you get miserable more than you ever knew,
And one fine morning the one whom you treated as your life all of sudden bids you goodbye and u r asked to start life like new…

Is it the bitter truth in life, is it a reason to mourn,
That everyone you loved to core will one day leave you all alone…
Thank god for teaching me these lessons… not sure how my life eventually will unfold,
May be by the time I will learn these bitter lessons it will be time to leave this world…

Is this the way I deserved to be treated,
Why the hell do I feel so miserably cheated???

radhusankar · Sep 14, 2010

Hi friend
i can understand ur feeling, each line shows ur pain, dont want to advice anything becoz only u know the way to live ur life, dont give up for anything, ready to face the life u can............

rgsrinivasan · Sep 14, 2010

Hello Friend,
First of all, congrats, for expressing what you feel, inspite of the turmoil that you are in. Sometimes we feel cheated. yes. I can only say this. Have a fervent hope and come out of it. Ensure that you will never do what others did to you so far. It is better said than done. But do not give up. Please. -rgs

rsk11584 · Sep 14, 2010

How could you turn your back on me when I screamed your name so loud?
How could you let me fall away from you, did you get too proud?
How could you watch as I died a gruesome death and broke apart?

How could you be so cruel to me when all I ever tried to do was fit in?
How could you be so hypocritical when I spoke my secrets from deep within?
How could you have said those things and pretended that they were true?
How could you have meant them all-I don't understand what you're trying to do.

How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..
How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?

How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know

How could you have done things things and live with no regret?
How could you not remember what you said, how could you forget?
How could you say you'd do it, and then never really follow through
But really, I just have one question to ask ... I just want to know, How could you??

this is from my side ;( ;( ;(

Arunarc · Sep 14, 2010

Hi Pursuit2life
This is really sad to read, when you can pen down your feelings, then I am sure you are brave enough to face the cruel turn of your life.
God give you strength dear.....

Arunarc · Sep 14, 2010

Hi Rsk11587
You know the one we love the most is the one who will hurt us the most......

Vidhyathan · Sep 14, 2010

hi Pursuit2Life,
Sometimes writing down feelings that hurt you helps. Because it brings out the innermost thoughts and helps you look at it. Keep writing and free your mind. Have the courage though its a painful time.

pursuit2liife · Sep 16, 2010

Thank you all for giving your precious two cents...and your support..I keep having these high n lows almost every other day..but i know i am strong to face all this...and who knows may be life has something better to offer...

Having lived with someone for 5 yrs, its kind of unbelieveable to imagine that he is now a complete stranger to you..and the thought about plunging into the groom search thingy all over again sounds so weird...but that's life...ain't it!

incarnation · Sep 16, 2010

you poem is ...I cant even say , good one , It is from your heart ,
I know you are feeling very low ..., may be sometimes not..
why dont you start caring for yourself...For next 2 months ..
Do One thing daily and that should be different , that makes you happy , it can be a small , simple , naughty , luxurious , greedy ;-) like food , baking , cooking your own fav , painting a t-shirt , shopping , etc

These are temp thing for 2 months , then you will get into a habit of doing of caring and giving yourself a priorty , because you need to give yourself a priority at this time...OK...
And good you penned down your thoughts clear and crisp , start getting clear and crisp for your future too similarly over a sometime..You will be , believe me...
-inc