Guilty, My Lord!

Suspicion is not that bad a thing. It keeps you alert and you don't become complacent. Accepting people with a pinch of salt is a pretty good idea. There is no need to feel guilt or shame about it. As for keeping things safe, my father used to say if you can't find something you need, that means it is "very safe" I would say "too safe" if you can't find it when you need it. When I travel I don't keep all my money in one place, so that even if some are lost or stolen, the rest remains safe.

 

Dear @HariLakhera ji,
As I read your above write up, I felt am behind an invisible curtain. The feeling of guilt, the wrong suspicion, the repentance, the nagging effect at the back of mind all gets dissolved once You journaled it here or told elsewhere. Your heart is off the load now and turned light I believe. Narration sound and your query would be shuttled among fellow IL’ites.

Spouse left her bangles beneath pillow that was on the “rajai”*over which our family was sleeping. It was spread on floor of the hall. Weather was murky. Our estimation of time by day light was haywire. It was already
8 O’ Clock. It was a chaotic get up and spouse & I rushed through work while my daughter of five was asleep.
Our one week old lanky domestic help arrived with her toddler and a girl of five. They were playing in a corner around my daughter. She half asleep joined in their play.
Subsequently the maid speaking only Telugu , rolled up the rajai and with pillows kept them in a corner bench. She finished the work. Her kids were given milk and biscuits. She had tea and with a smile went away.

Around nine spouse was seen fidgety. She said her pair of golden pair bangles lost and suspected the maid & her girl. I told her not to be hasty and search thoroughly. She said it was done already and compelled me to scoot her to hamlet. We do know maid was staying in a nearby hamlet. With daughter standing over in my front, spouse behind, rushed in lambretta in search of maid. We met her when she was busy with hearth.

Maid Nagamma denied. We were in dilemma. The crowd in the neighbourhood supporting her began suspecting us trying to frame the helpless maid.

We returned home wondering whether to lodge police complaint. It was getting late for both of us to rush to office. Now my daughter understood the backdrop of this scene.

It was then, my daughter opened the shutters on tv cabinet cum showcase and picked up the missing golden bangles. She said she only removed from underneath pillow when no one was in the hall except kids of Nagamma.

Spouse desired to make amends. She & I rushed to our maid but for some unknown reasons she vacated the place perhaps fearing that she might be harassed when we make police complaint.

Few years gone by. We saw with her grown up kids. Nagamma cheerfully enquired about our daughter and boy. She did not ask us about bangles. Spouse only expressed tearfully her mistake in suspecting them in haste. When we offered her to domestic work with good salary, she declined politely because that she is employed now with State Bank Of India in our colony!

There is another incident in which a lodge mate - a o box working for a popular Kerala based chit company collected Saturday by afternoon huge funds that he could not deposit in the bank. When the moneystuffed in his pillow was missing, He suspected other lodge mates. Police came and made enquires to inmates & lodge manager. During those days there was no CCTV OR MOBILE PHONES. But police detective person resolved the case brilliantly and nabbed the culprit. ...... I shall keep it suspense. Until then let it .....

Thanks and Regards.

 

Sometimes we trust people just like that and sometimes we don't. You don't need to feel guilt because you thought it was safe to not to trust that unknown person. Trusting some one at some extent is good but it depends on situations and that person.

It is unworthy to tell your distrust thoughts towards him and it definitely makes that person hurt. You didn't reveal your mind to him and you didn't do any harm. So, Let that incident go,Hari Ji.

 

Yes, that kind of incidents make me upset. They just consider other person's financial status, forget that they have also ethics and trust their loved ones so blindly.