I worry. I procrastinate. I am not doing anything to fix things. I need to focus. On what? Where and how? Why this deadlock situation? What am l doing with my life? Aimless and directionless.
One not so serious answer would be take so much rest..so much!!! That you get bored of rest and start doing something..
Problem is not in making the list. When it comes to prioritizing and implementation, I end up doing none of it, except for the must do tasks. I feel like a snail.
Hmm...that's the conundrum. When I am having work, I feel overwhelmed. Now that I am at leisure (forced), I feel restless.
I too have these spells. I had this unknowing irritability or something when the whole lock down started. I hated everybody. What I do is try to remind myself to calm down and slow down and pick up one chore very slowly and try to enjoy. sometimes waking up earlier than every one and going or a walk helps. Or some sort of self care, like a beauty routine or yoga or exercise or even tidying up a messy corner etc. Sometimes we just have to go with it.
Really....? For sure, you should have a few things which you wanted to do but could not...pursue them....Love being a snail...Actually this situation has forced everyone to stop in their mad rush through life and pause to 'smell the flowers'... So many reasons,weather, physiological conditions, food and yes...people around etc., etc. can make mood changes in us and when I have 'those' days, I just let them pass and "not feel guilty about it"..yes this is the important thing. I am very very happy to be alive, to see the dawn of each morning, when so many people can't..due to loss of sight, ill health etc..and even die sleeping...! I know I am late here, but I just wanted to post this....!
Yes, I agree that I shouldn't feel bad and be happy that I am able to do some things that some or most people cannot. I also agree that worry is not a solution. It's just that recurring feeling of helplessness and inability to get the tasks done that I had in mind that is very frustrating. The lack of courage to get things done, the stubbornness of mind to not process cotrectly what others are saying....
Yes, I understand....been there myself..It is in our culture to always make others happy, putting ourselves last, to be perfect if everything we do..blah..blah......One day suddenly I realised that I have been gifted this life to live.....not for setting unrealistic goals and feel the resultant despondency if they are not met, and that living in harmony doesnt mean that we cannot disagree or have a mind of our own, it is okay to give allowances for ourselves, our mistakes, mis-judgements etc...,not to be perfect and , not to fit into a mould others have set for us. I need to accept myself first , however I am....and then saw that the pressure was off and felt free. In the whole world our mind is the most difficult to tame and train...and it is with 99.9% of people..if we take charge of our minds and be the master, the mind will stop playing truant and taunting us. I have to keep telling myself again and again or else the money ( mind) will start showing its tricks...thanks to your post I am reassuring myself again.
