Colleague, Friend, Girl Friend, Wife???!!! - A love story....

Chapter 32 :

Sanjana’s Pov :

The waves eroded the sand under my feet.. I laughed merrily at the tingling sensation it gave.. I saw a gigantic wave forming and started rolling towards the shore.. I waited till it comes a few meters away from me and then I started to run.. It was always my favorite game to play this Chase and Catch game with the sea..

“Hey watch out..” My hubby shouted..

Heeding his warning I turned my head to check the distance between me and the wave.. What I dint expect was to see it just right behind me.. I let out a shriek when the wave crashed into me.. I lost my footing and got drowned.. I gasped because of the sudden impact and that’s a worst thing to do when your face pressed down into water.. Salt water entered my nose and mouth and I was coughing and spitting.. I heard loud laughter and someone pulled me out of the water gripping my shoulders.. Who else it can be.. My stupid hubby only..

“I told you..” He said in my ear..

“But I won 4/5.. See am faster than the waves..” I leant my back against his broad chest comfortably and enjoyed his arms around me..

“I have picked up the bestest of sea shells and you are going to love them.. They are better than the ones you have collected.. Come I’ll show you.."

He nuzzled my ear with his nose and I giggled.. I turned myself in his hold and my breathe caught in my throat.. It’s Vishwa.. He was looking at me with so much love in his eyes which seemed bigger than the roaring ocean behind me.. He tipped my face up and started leaning towards me..

“It’s a dream.. You know that.. It has to stop here.. You got to wake up..”

I woke up with a jolt and my head hurt from the sudden movement.. I fell on the bed again with a thud.. Oh my God.. The dream was nothing new to me.. This is one of the dreams that I get often.. Sometimes once in a year or sometimes few times in a year.. And even in the dream, I always knew it’s a dream.. I still remember the first time I got that.. It was the day I watched a movie named ‘Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind’.. After developing a hero worship for Sir Percy Blakeney in my school days I have never really thought about love or such feelings.. But I was deeply affected by the movie and kept thinking about love and the bond that comes with it..

I went to bed that night and kept recalling the movie in my mind until I lose myself to the complete darkness only sleep can provide.. And I had this beautiful dream.. He was the first guy to enter my dream world.. Even though, Sir Percy has visited it so many times before he always came with Marguerite clinging onto his arm.. And she never let me feel anything to relate with him.. Possessive Witch.. Always kept me in bay.. So I was over the moon when I got MY guy.. Exclusively for me.. The dream was so vivid.. Yet so vague.. There are so many controversies about how the dreams are always in black and white or you can’t see colors in it., etc., But in my dream I remembered the scene like a photocopy and the emotions I felt.. But I have no idea of how I looked like or what we wore or any such details.. And the guy’s face was always blurry.. How much ever I try I couldn’t give a face to his image..

So he remained faceless all these years.. So many men crossed my life since then and so many times I have got the same dream again and again.. It’s like the times the Police people compares one details with their database to find out the culprit.. In most movies those scenes will end up with ‘No match found’ blinking in the screen.. Same thing happened to me.. After every guy and after every time of the dream, no one was able to match their face with my man.. And I had been afraid what if it didn’t match with the person I had to marry eventually..

After gently refusing all the guys who proposed to me since my school days, I was so positive I wasn’t capable of falling in love with someone in this lifetime.. I had no idea what I was looking for in him but I always felt these are not the one I’m going to spend my life with.. So I was very much sure am going to settle down with the guy my parents choose for me.. I didn’t want a fairy tale prince who can decapitate the entire world for my rescue and neither I’m a princess who can ever be prisoned in a high castle tower.. I was a simple girl with simple dreams and wishes.. A guy who will hold me when I cry for no reason at all and never think I have a cracked brain.. A guy who is not shy of accepting his feelings for me.. A guy who will never let me go even in our sleep.. A guy who will let me fight my own battles and not brush me off as a weaker sex.. A guy who will go on his all fours to find the best sea shell to see an appreciative smile on my lips.. My dream guy was all that.. It always felt like he was my husband. And not some lover boy.. My faceless husband till yesterday..

I wanted to let out a scream which can rattle the windows and awake Keeru who’s sleeping peacefully like she has no care in the world.. It kept flashing in my mind, the moment his blurred face morphed into a clear picture of Vishwa.. I’m so so dead.. I was doing good.. I was fine with the confusion between crush or love.. Now I was scared.. This revelation didn’t make me happy at all.. I didn’t want to be pushed off to the edge.. I wanted wider space.. I wanted options.. I was not serious about a future with Vishwa.. I just wanted my life to continue the same.. To go with the flow.. Going with the flow was easy.. We will reach our ocean some day.. When we were least looking for it.. You will be happily surprised.. But everything will change when you had to swim against the tide.. You will be exposed to pain and heartaches..

A tear rolled down my cheeks.. That was the approval it needed.. A raw cry erupted from my throat and I ran to the bathroom.. I sat on the closed commode and let my frustrations out in fat tears.. Suddenly I felt my life became too complicated.. I was not looking for love.. A part of my mind was always voicing Vishwa is just like the times I drooled over Richard Gere, Pierce Brosnan, Ricky Ponting and a few others.. After a bad movie, after a bad game they just faded away.. Vishwa was someone supposed to be that way.. That was what my subconscious mind believed to happen.. I didn’t want to pursue him..

I have never in my life thought about anything seriously.. I don’t have a single serious bone in my body.. I was mostly impulsive and according to my mom I was a pushover.. If she ask me to think through it and give me an hour, my only thought process will be how can you think about something for an entire hour.. I’ll just go back to her with my startup decision I took before she turned the sand clock.. So all these thinking drank my energy and I felt mentally drained.. I can’t think much and I don’t want to beat myself for something I’m not good at.. I need to distract myself..

I quickly brushed my teeth and tied my hair in a high pony tail.. I changed into a tracksuit and laced my running shoes tight.. I plugged my Sony digital player and blasted some music.. I got down from our room and saw the two love birds sitting on the porch and discussing about today’s news around the globe..

“Morning Gramps.. Morning Nana..”

I greeted and hugged them both.. They were so cheerful and it made me sick.. I was never a morning person..

“Going for the park sweetheart??” Mr. Nathaniel.

“Yep.. Need some adrenaline pumping into my blood..”

“Okay.. Then we will also come.. We could use some fresh air too..” He chirped.

I happily agreed for their company and started pushing his Wheel chair.. After years of chronic Knee pain he was put into that for a good part of the day.. It was a custom-made motorized wheel chair his son bought from abroad.. We were chatting and walked to the nearby park..

The moment I entered the park I felt a fresh energy rushing into me.. It was buzzing with kids playing tennis and shuttle.. Few aged people were walking slowly in the path.. Other few were in small groups talking or doing simple stretching exercises.. Kids were playing in the swings and slides and laughing.. Few guys were running like they are going to participate in coming Olympics and they were drenched in sweat.. My legs tickled to run seeing them.. I spotted a wooden bench under a tree overlooking the entire park and decided to leave the couple there.. They greatly enjoyed watching the different scenes the park had to offer.. I could see the bench was already occupied by two ladies but still the lengthy bench has plenty of space and it’s not like you will need or get privacy in a public park..

I rounded the corner and stopped his Wheel chair and went on my knees to clamp it from moving..

“Sanju?? Sanjana right??”

I looked up to see the lady hovering over me.. My energy bubble instantly got burst and I got up quickly..

“Auntie.. I’m really very sorry for that day.. I didn’t mean to say all that.. I apologize for my crude behavior..”

I stammered seeing Vishwa’s mom.. Of all the people I could run into it has to be her.. I cursed my luck and looked at the couple watching me with keen eyes.. Definitely she’s going to scold me now and I’m going to be embarrassed before the two I came to think of as my own grandparents..

His sister also got up and came towards us holding the cutie pie in her hands.. I felt like a flat tire.. Is it possible for me to run pushing a wheel chair.. Not possible.. This is called Karma and it’s time for me to face the music..

“What are you apologizing for??” She waved a hand like I said something really silly and smiled at me..

I stopped myself in the last second before blowing out a loud breathe in relief.. I definitely could do with her as my Mother in law.. I wanted to slap my face really hard for such an absurd thought.. His sister was also smiling at me wildly with a mysterious gleam in her eyes.. They both introduced themselves with us and I nodded my head when they asked me were the couple my grandparents..

Jiya jiggled in her moms hands and extended her pudgy little hands at me.. I was overwhelmed for a minute and looked at Shylu’s face for approval.. She nodded her head at me encouragingly and handed her over to me.. I lifted her carefully in my arms and looked at her in awe.. She gave an innocent smile only a child can give and started playing with the hanging earphones around my neck..

They said they just came to let Jiya play and we chatted a little.. All the while I was secretly sniffing the baby, the baby powder and the typical baby scent.. What’s with you and your Uncle, Why you both attack my nostrils with your scents and make me behave like a twisted person.. All four were chatting nicely by then and I excused myself from the group saying I’m going for a run..

So much for venting out.. Vishwa’s thoughts came back to me in full force and I started running like the devil is at my heels.. In this case the devil is at my thoughts.. How can I run from something which is sitting on my mind and soul..

 

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Great to hear sweetie..

 

Thank you so much Vidhu darling.. For your awesome comments.. Love you like anything.. Your motivating words plays a big role.. Love you loads sweetheart

 

Yes dear.. Have seen su check incidents in my life too.. Good that you are open to change yourself when you read or see something right.. Love you..