Feeling Hopeless and extremely depressed

hivid · Jun 26, 2013

Hi All
Since the time I attained puberty I used to have regular periods. On the dot! In 2008 my periods started getting delayed..Then in Jan 2010 PCOS was diagnosed. I was consulting a homeopath at that time. She gave me medicines but I had to move to Hyd due to transfer. During this time I was only 45 Kgs. In Oct 2010 I got married and within 1 to 1.5 years I became 60 Kgs . My periods have become extremely erratic. I took homeo medicines from Dec 2011 to Mar 2013 religiously but it did not help at all. I would get periods and it would not stop at all for 3-4 weeks..I was really frustrated and finally went to a gynae in April 2013. She induced periods for me and tested LH,FSH in May. It was perfect. But I did not get any ovulation symptoms during that cycle. I even bought homecheck ovulation kit and checked and it was always negative ...We still tried..I did not get periods in June though..I went to her on day 35. She did beta hcg..It was negative so gave me Meprate 2 tabs for 5 days..I finished the dose on June 19 but I have not got my periods still.
I was thinking that maybe some miracle has happened and may be I am pregnant and did a hpt today but that was also negative
I feel very hopeless. I feel extremely depressed. Meanwhile my mother consulted some astrologers and they also say that I will have problems in conceiving. It is not denial but delay..
My husband had some issues in his SA and he is having medicines for that..
But I feel very scared..
No other happiness matters to me these days..Everything looks small in front of my troubles in conceiving. Husband is young and only 27..I am 28..I don't know if age is in my favor. I feel really really sad and am slowing breaking down.
People tell it is so easy to get pregnant..All my friends say they only tried once and got pregnant. Then why am I suffering.

adinil · Jun 26, 2013

dont worry dear...fear will even delay more...be calm and relax
and keep negative feelings away...
trust me you hold your little one soon

take care

plakshmi · Jun 26, 2013

hi

nothing in our hands. believe in god and magic miracle will happen. lots of baby dust to you.

lakshmi

Katakam123 · Jun 26, 2013

I'm in the same boat!

I tried to be strong Infront of others, but I can't lie to myself . How many medicine how many suggestion how many hurtful words

everytime I feel .... this is it

This the end ... But soon another hope comes

Can't find words to express my sorrow n sadness ...

Not sure how long this wait going to be ......

hivid · Jun 26, 2013

Thanks Adinil..I just feeling like hugging someone and crying..Just cry my heart out..I don't even know if I am ovulating or not so I am very very sceptical about my chances,,

hivid · Jun 26, 2013

Thanks Lakshmi..
I am waiting for that miracle.. I was praying to baba and when I saw negative results I even shouted at him..One miracle is what I ask for !

plakshmi said: ↑

hi

nothing in our hands. believe in god and magic miracle will happen. lots of baby dust to you.

lakshmi
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adinil · Jun 26, 2013

hi Katakam123

your wait will get over soon

please keep your positive thoughts awake...trust me...god will bless u soon

dont loose hope...miracles do happen dear

Katakam123 said: ↑

I'm in the same boat!

I tried to be strong Infront of others, but I can't lie to myself . How many medicine how many suggestion how many hurtful words

everytime I feel .... this is it

This the end ... But soon another hope comes

Can't find words to express my sorrow n sadness ...

Not sure how long this wait going to be ......
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hivid · Jun 26, 2013

Thanks Katakam
Even I try to be strong in front of my parents and try to convince that baby is not everything. Its imp to have a good family, good inlaws and good husband.. I have all of that but I still feel sad..Deep down I know I am lying..I am scared if I will get pregnant..I am curios when it will happen and I am frustrated to see my periods are so irregular

Katakam123 said: ↑

I'm in the same boat!

I tried to be strong Infront of others, but I can't lie to myself . How many medicine how many suggestion how many hurtful words

everytime I feel .... this is it

This the end ... But soon another hope comes

Can't find words to express my sorrow n sadness ...

Not sure how long this wait going to be ......
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Katakam123 · Jun 26, 2013

Hope we will have the strength,

It was not our choice to be born as girl, still we enjoyed it
It was not our choice to be married, we were shown the right guy we took it with a smile
It is our wish to hold a life in our womb, give a life to an angel that will be the shoulder for the community

Our wish is so high..... Waiting for the right seed that will make the great hope successful

We are the life time mother .... Our kids will be the pillars .... I have no doubt on tht

May be god have doubt on us!!!! We will not give up so fast

Mothers don't give up !!!

luckysangeetha · Jun 26, 2013

Hey it is obvious that you will be depressed. Because I am undergoing a condition called premature ovarian failure where I have menstruated only 3 times for 15 years and I am 29 years old and its because of chromosomal disorder where it is irreversible as per medical terms. I had my mind and body just like a 50 year old women when I was just 18 years. you will now know how difficult it would have been. I have given up my career, job for this But I am fighting and will fighting and I am getting better day by day.I am getting the cure now.......

Now coming to the point of hope. Yes I have loads loads of hope and for the past 15 years I was undergoing your same kind of depression where there was no one to give me emotional support after that only my hubby came into picture and he got married knowing this condition and he said only one sentence" "lets make this happen I am there and we will trust god and pray him"" hope you know now how much I would have undergone.

Think why is this happening?? see where u are doing mistakes in food intake,exercise,mental stress.Break the hurdles. You can Ping me and ask for emotional support I can help to my fullest possible.

Don't give up. Life is too short to live and in that these are all tests of god to see how well you are playing this pool and make things happen.Ask,fight,plead in god. Don't think he will come in front of you and say you """ here is your cure my daughter""" you will messages or some signs in some form to come our of this difficulty.

Keep fighting keep fighting. We ladies need to be stronger mentally. don't give up. Look for people without eyes,legs,hands,child born with cerebral palsy, heart defect, cancer patient. Now is your case small enough in front of these diseases???

Answer my question above u will know how easy it is for you to get out.

PM me how u are progressing

Women has the power to change anything I believe in that because our world stands in Maha Sakthi