Everyday is not the same

Yesterday was a good day for me and today from morning its just the opposite. Early morning when I logged in to IL I was very happy that I got a pm from Sudha that she has finally posted about the meet.
I just went through a glance since I had not started my morning work, so thought let me finish everything and come and read the meet peacefully and hoped to give the first fb to her. But when I came back at 8 a.m. after finishing my kitchen work and prayers I was so disappointed that the net was not available. Then I had to go to my younger daughter’s house to help her a little before she goes to office. But by the time I had gone she had finished her work and had just to wake her daughter and get her ready. Her daughter now one year five months was not ready to get up and wanted to sleep more. Somehow we managed to wake her up and she left to leave her daughter in mil’s place and I came back home. Again when I logged in the net was still not available. Disappointed I phoned the cable people and they said it will come in another one and half hour. Till 11.15 a.m. net not available and I was getting so irritated . At last the net came and read the fbs which I got . Then surprisingly I got a call from Sudha. I was very happy to talk to her and told her about the net problem. By the time I came back after talking on the phone the net again went off. Now also while writing this in word my net is not available so thought of drafting this post. After having lunch when the net was still not available phoned the cable office and they said some problem in band width so it will take some hours. Then when I logged in at 5 pm. the net was available and I could give fb to Sudha’s meet up., by which time there were so many fbs. Since Bhajanatsovam is going on in a school here from Saturday, I asked my husband where he will be going today to Bhajanatsovam or to the temple as today being Monday they recite Rudram in the Shiva temple here. He I think told me he will be going to temple but I think I did not pay much attention.
So when I was leaving to go out in the evening again I asked him and he got angry saying now a days you don’t pay attention and something else he said which I don’t remember now. I kept quite as usual because when he is angry he does not know what he says. Who else will he show his anger only me na who ls a very obedient wife and will be with him till the last. Then he went to the temple , I watched TV for sometime but then I was feeling very low. So went to the neighbor and let out my feelings to her who gave me consolation.
My dh is very short tempered but after shouting he will forget that he had shouted. But I feel very hurt. Just now he came to sleep and was asking finished writing 30 letters . I told him where in between the net is giving trouble. He has forgotten about the evening incident. In many ways he is very good so I should not complain about him. He is doing so much social service . I must have done some punya in last birth to get him as my husband but since our ideas are different I get frustrated sometimes.

So everyday is not the same , some days are good and some days are not so good. When I was young I was very bold and never used to sit and worry but off late I worry for small things must be because I am having more free time to think of all this.

 

Dear Deepali

Thank you for the first fb. Since yesterday my internet is giving problems. I write down the post and when I go to submit the net goes off, this has beenhappening since yesterday. So now I write down in word when it is a long one and then post it

love
viji

 

Dear Deepali

Thank you for the first fb. Since yesterday my internet is giving problems. I write down the post and when I go to submit the net goes off, this has beenhappening since yesterday. So now I write down in word when it is a long one and then post it

love
viji

 

Dear Sudha

Oh I was feeling bad that I could not give you the first fb. I was also very happy to hear your voice and could tell the internet problem verbally. Sad to note that you were also sailing in the same boat

love
viji

 

Dear Meena

I think if I read your tamil jokes only I will feel relieved. But now a days there is so much to read in IL in all the forums and give replies to my fbs, I dont get time to go there.

Good to hear about your grandmother and grandfather. Though my husband shouts at me , he cant do without me. Thats why I pray to God that he should leave this world before me , so that he wont suffer without me.

love
viji

P.S. Why go through your tamil jokes if I read the fbs you give and the messages in CM thread itself will make me happy