I lost a friend who said that she's felt that I’ve always been competing with her. We used to be friends and roommates, she was my confidante. Since she was such a private person, I didn't realize that she didn't feel the same. Personality-wise, she was always quite charitable minded and giving, while having one of the scariest tempers. While being younger than me, she had far more obstacles in her life, that had given her a more mature outlook in life. This made me look up to her. I truly appreciated her advice and consciously or unconsciously, I picked up certain things she did. One of them is poetry writing. Before I started writing poetry, she seemed fairly normal with me, but once I started writing and sharing with her, she started being distant with me. After nearly 6 months, I finally asked her why she replied with such impersonal replies - and she told me that I was always so competitive with her, starting with her engagement to poetry. And that she has invested a lot to out friendship and never felt like I was there for her (I was unable to attend her wedding). It hurt to lose her as a friend, and it made me very self-conscious about how much I revealed about myself with other friends. I reached out to other friends (not because of this, for other reasons), and realized that I had other friendships, strong ones that can stand the test of time and distance. People do come into our lives for a reason, season or a lifetime. Its not always obvious at first, which roles each person has.