Whom to complain about myself ? I am so stupid or so used to complaining. Better to change. No one is at fault other than me, when I am capable of controlling my brain. What exactly happened - why I am sad, upset and crying? Answer is : NOTHING NEW. How to gather the control over my brain and let it settle down. This is the only place I can come back and gain the strength all the time when I am in need of help. This feeling is not new to me, every time I go thru this and bounce back. I try listen to motivational videos or some good quotes. Sometimes one random line helps me to move with lot of positiveness. But this time, positive-ness has been completely shut off. You are the only hope for me. All I want its: Just be happy, be normal and calm down this pounding heart.