Hi ilites. I am posting after a long time here. After 3 years of marriage I am finally blessed with a kid. But before there are many bitter experiences which are haunting me and I am unable to forgive my inlaws. Even my DH is not supportive of me. I am a working woman. Previously I was living with my in laws. Since I could not conceive for 2 years, I was called infertile by my MIL and co-sis. Once I was fasting for durga puja. I neither had any food nor any water. Since it was Chaitra month and it was summer I was feeling weak after coming from mandap and was resting. My MIL commented saying "you are doing so many fasts yet god is not pleased to bless you with a child". I mean what was my fault if I could not conceive immediately after marriage. Another incident one fine morning I was preparing tea when my co-sis entered the kitchen and asked if I had broomed the kitchen to which I replied no. Then she commented that if you will not follow rules then god will not be pleased with you and you will suffer meaning I have not broomed the kitchen before preparing tea hence I am not being blessed with child. Once my MIL had gone to someone's house. That day I had my first miscarriage. After coming home she just got angry without any reason and started shouting that people are having one baby per year and She (MIL) has a very bad luck because she is having infertile DIL and if you cannot give birth to baby then you are free to go to your parents house. It pained me deep inside. I told this to my husband but he told me to forget that and move on. For the sake of my husband I forgot. My routine was to get up early, do some routine, prepare breakfast my tiffin, do house temple puja, then prepare morning tea and come to office. In the evening prepare dinner at home for 7 members without any break even if I am suffering from cold or fever. My co-sis does only lunch. Still MIL complained my mother that since I am doing job I am not doing anything in house and all house works are managed by my co-sis. One day my co-sis and I had a heated argument. She called me infertile and also called me that I am like a street dog who doesnot have any respect in this house since I don't have child and that even if she beats me nobody will care for me and lifted shoes to beat me. My MIL and FIL did not utter a single word then. MIL wants me to patch up with her since if I will not patch up then in future my DH will not give money to them. Fact is co-sis and her family is dependent on my DH and my elder BIL is just a carefree guy who doesnot want to take any responsibility. After argument my elder BIL asked my PIL that when I am going to vacate the house since they cannot adjust with me. They call me fat sometime or other since I am overweight. Hence while I was pregnant I shifted to another house to get some peace. My DH has no say in all of this. Now MIL underwent a minor operation (Cataract) one month ago in another city. Yesterday DH blamed me that why I have not visited MIL to see her to which I told that after all the above incidents I am not interested to go there. He angrily left the house saying I and my kid are nobody to him and his family and that he will not come to this house. I rang my MIL in tension if DH has gone there since they live close by to which she replied no and cut the call where as I can clearly hear my DH voice there. I have no contact with him since then. Where was I in fault. I am literally crying thinking those past incidents. I may be wrong somewhere since nobody is 100% correct but I am hurt deep inside. DH has threatened me that he will talk to my father and take decision what so ever. My MIL is such a type that she always teaches my husband to be strict with me and if some day my DH will be talking with me she will comment that you cannot see anyone in front of her and will sit there so that we cannot talk any more. Sorry for the long post. Btw I have decided not to call DH or ILs since yesterday my mother called DH 3 times and he did not respond her. M mother was present when DH and I were quarrelling. She pleaded him not to leave the house and to see child face once but he just sided my mother and went away. Any suggestions.