Hello all, I was a silent reader of IL for a long time and then started finding solace and comfort for my fertility woes here. I usually restrict myself to fertility issues as personally I feel that is my biggest problem. However last week I had one of the worst weeks and needed some place to vent. Firstly my younger co sister is pregnant for the second time and I am trying to come to terms with it. Infact i dont even know what my feeling is , its beyond sadness. To share my feelings, I thought of speaking to my childhood friend. We were neighbors, went to same schools and colleges and separated only during our post graduation. She was a pillar of support to me when my dad passed away. She got married when she was in her final year engineering and within 1 year had her daughter. Meanwhile I started to work and married 5 years later. After one year i started trying to conceive and have been reeling under many fertility challenges like male factor, low amh, low blood flow, failed ivf's. From the time she got married she had lot of inlaws troubles and I was always there for her.When my challenges started she just did not have time as she was constantly worried with her own troubles. I slowly distanced myself and it hurt me that she did not seem to notice as well. But for old times sake and since we are family friends also i keep in touch with her. Maybe because i was upset with the cosister's news i shared it with my friend, all my friend could remark was oh she is so lucky, I am trying so hard for a second kid its not happening. And then on and on it was her story about her frustration of not conceiving again, her kid having to grow up alone, etc etc. To say i was annoyed was an understatement, I was hurt. She did not spare a thought for what i might be going through. I did mention dont you think its even more difficult for me, she just said do not worry it will happen. That's it . I repeated that it will happen for her as well and cut the call. Instead of making me feel better this call made me feel worse. Just a Vent.