Hi All, Long post alert Some of you might be aware of my story. Roller coster married life with issues withg MIL and occasionally supporting husband. I have a 1.5 yr dd and thankfully my life is super busy with my job and looking after my dd after coming back. I hardly sleep for 3 to 4 hrs a day. From the beginning my husband does not appreciate the idea of me going to my moms house who also stays in the same city. He used to stop talking to me two days before and after. However I have not given up on this and I make sure I visit her every now and then. I have got used to this behavior now and dont care much about his silent treatment and other such stuff. Recently I have been getting extremely irritated MIL and his behavior. More than what is happening now the past incidents is killing my mind. The MIL issues, how she treats me. How biased she is with me and my cosis. How dh keeps mum for all this and all that. These situation happen to continue even today. Me and MIL are not in talking terms. However she keeps taunting indirectly quite often which I was ignoring. However recently I feel like I am loosing my patience for all this. I am not sure if this is because of ppd or because of prolonged suffering. I tried talking to dh over such issues a couple of times. He seems to be not in a mindset to listen anything against his mom though he knows that she is wrong. He tries to shut me up saying that i have a negative mind set and always think wrong. She blames me if my dd falls sick. She blames me for putting more coffee decoction. She blames me for keeping the back door open (even though I dont do it). what not. My husband never tells her not to talk like that. Recently there was a discussion something similar topic and he said she will behave well provided I am nice to her. I asked him does it mean that I have to fall on her feet everyday. He had no answer to justify his statement and he just left the place. Somehow I was ddeply hurt with these words and I felt like avoiding him. Its been almost 20 days that I am not talking to him. Still he is not bothered to ask me what the matter is. Last week both MIL and dh were talking and did not notice that I entered the house. MIL was complaining to dh on FIL(Some super silly issue) and concluded that I am also like that. I got so pissed off and called my dh and asked why is she always behind me like this and why does she always complains to him on me. He again asked me to stop seeing things in a negative manner and there is nothing of that sort. He spoke as if its not MILs mistake to back talk about me, but its my mistake to listen to it. I am a kind of person to let go things soon and easily. But this time I am not at all able to come out of this pain how much ever i try to. I know that no discussion with dh is going to help on this as he would never accept all these things. Offlate I started feeling so depressive and lonely. I have a bitter feeling that I no more than a maid and baby sitter in this house. I should not have any emotions and concerns. I just be happy with a smiling face and take all the insults with a broad mind. How can I make myself better in such a situation. Please advice.