Hi all, Hope all ILites are doing great..I am finally settling in here at IIT with loads of assignment and quizzes THe course work is hectic beyond imagination.. I am currently staying in a hostel with my kiddo at parent's place..I love this place, the intellectual challenge, the neural activity, i cycle to classes with a college bag etc etc but I also feel disturbed may be due to my insecurities.. I am 31 (I dont know why I feel ashamed saying this!) but looks 23-24..not a big deal..I basically sit in classes, attend labs with freshers who are 5-7 yrs younger to me...Everyone have either formed their gangs or trying to gel up..My parents stay close so I run home whenever I dont have assignments or quizzes as I miss my daughter a lot...So no chances of socializing in the hostel or mess with girls...Guys were good enough but the moment they know that am an external candidate they pester me for year of passing and run away..I mean whats the harm in having a healthy relationship with either of the genders irrespective of age just like here in IL? I think i dont have that flamboyance in me to make friends.. I try being helpful and jovial to everybody.I initiate conversations..how many times do i need to do it..If i dont talk nobody cares.. .And the fact I could not deny is I feel lonely even in the midst of so many people...But my mind rationalize it well saying that I am not a kid like them and ought to act matured.Its like I can neither compare my life with my college mates nor become a fresher all of sudden...Have anyone of you been in a position like mine? Or am the only 30 yrs old doing a masters in a college with regular students How to strike a balance?