Mithai, has history class test tomorrow, she read the book on Saturday which was her school holiday, but from Sunday onwards amazingly that book was nowhere to be found. I looked wherever my brain could guide me, Mithai asked me to google... Today the school shared a great news that the book is out of market as of now. Not understanding what is the best way to avert a potential 'fail in exam' disaster... , Mithai's daddy gave me a SOS and asked what should he say to the school. I guided him to ask if they could somehow get a copy of the book as her annual exam is also drawing near. Am nt sure, but last I heard of the status is her principal got involved in this and stated school will try to help her somehow, but she clearly expressed her displeasure towards Mithai's mom...god help me pls get over this pang of guilt that I cannot look after my daughter well. Plenty of such incidents quite often points at me. The fact that still am trying to be a good mother is challenging to me at times. Coping up with work at office, at home, maintain relations with colleagues, friends, relatives and others, communicate such that politically correct words comes out and a heap of other activities often make me fail in truly looking after my baby, my 8 year old daughter. But you know what, I made her learn LOGO and Weather and made her understand number magic in the last 3 days and when she was going to school today she simply looked at me and said 'ma I will get full marks in computer science and maths this week, you just see me''...yes this is what I was fighting for. I am not good at household work, cannot sing, cannot knit or weave, cannot even maintain relationships with all but I know when to take things in my own hand. For example, the last three were my off and I asked Mithai's teacher not to come since I would sit with my baby and guide her small sentimental brain. I do not need her to fetch 100% results but I need her to be confidant and know the basics. Am I really that bad mom? I know friends do not judge, hence I am not writing this to get views in my favor or opposite. But I needed to share the incident as am sure some of us would identify with me.