Doing this for so many years; I am no longer -ve. I think some time I have become a stone image. Keeping my feelings to myself. I have opened to DH many times and most of the conversations start with me being calm but gets furious turn when he starts taking the side or start being defensive. Its hard not to change the tone. It happens automatically. Honestly that is the reason I am trying to refrain starting the conversation. Personally I am not a conversation starter. I rather sulk in than vent out. Taking the first step, will need courage from my end. But I'll break again if DH doesn't get my point. I know he knows that I am not being myself. There is something bothering me.