Present But Absent Mom

ashneys · Jun 27, 2017

Rapzee said: ↑

I don't know if this has turned into an "open journal" but I hate situations where this void in my life is felt so much. So I have been having some "gynecological" problems for some time lately and I finally decided to get an appointment. But I wish I had someone I could ask any questions I had. But clearly google seems to be my only friend and by it really hurts.
Click to expand...

Hi, Put your queries, questions n doubts here. You will get real motherly n sisterly advises from experienced ladies. It's not a replacement. Any kind of love is love.

ashneys · Jun 27, 2017

Rapzee said: ↑

My relationship now with both of them has gotten to "here, doing things because I am supposed to and it's out of respect". Little things such as me saying "mom I am going to the mall, you wanna come" and then getting a response "no, I don't feel like it" and hearing stuff like this on regular base is gone. just the other week moms friend calls her says let's go to the mall. Mom calls me says I am going to the mall with such and such aunty. So stuff like this starts pointing towards mom not wanting my company more than anything else. And gone are the days where I will put my emotions on the front line no matter how much I hurting in the back. Because if me putting it out there makes no difference then might as well keep mum about it.

And funny how you say "dear zindagi" My best friend made me watch that movie because he is like it's almost like this movie is about your life. Not only that one even "Dil Dhadakne Do" with Priyanka's character in ways.
Click to expand...

If possible or haven't tried before, I would recommend you to write a letter with all your feelings, good n bad, everything, addressing to your mom n dad about the past, present and future. Just pour your heart out, don't hold bak. And hand it over and go out for the day.

Sometimes parents or most ppl for that matter may not understand until it's said out loud. It's better your parents know what you are going through rather than being kept in the dark and years later say "why didn't you just say so?"

Rapzee · Jul 27, 2017

ashneys said: ↑

If possible or haven't tried before, I would recommend you to write a letter with all your feelings, good n bad, everything, addressing to your mom n dad about the past, present and future. Just pour your heart out, don't hold bak. And hand it over and go out for the day.

Sometimes parents or most ppl for that matter may not understand until it's said out loud. It's better your parents know what you are going through rather than being kept in the dark and years later say "why didn't you just say so?"
Click to expand...

Did it many years ago, I don't remember the impact but assuming it may have not been good to have not remembered it. Right this second I just feel so crushed and useless and all I want is someone to wrap their arms around me and tell me it will be okay. And all I can do is close my eyes imagine that...nothing more.

Log in or Sign up

Present But Absent Mom

ashneys Platinum IL'ite

ashneys Platinum IL'ite

Rapzee Senior IL'ite

Share This Page