Not sure my husband really loves me

well, I just sometimes tolerate the abuse from my husband for the sake of my kid. I don't want him to grow up as a fatherless child and yearn for father's affection.

Its not that I tolerate abuse from my husband because I got used to it. I have never seen my father hit my mother. My husband's abuse is a heartbreaking experience for me.

So as some ILites suggested positively, I have decided as below.

1. Do my chores in a way no one can question me

2. Save part of my income for my kid.

3. concentrate in my career to earn more.

4. Be with faith and patience in god who have given this life for me and try to change things through love. I will wait for one more year…if all my attempts fail, I will walk out of my hubby's house the next day of my kid's birthday in 2012