Lonely And Depressed

I guess every person can relate to what you have posted ...it's really something. ..

Most of use like me don't know how to collect those feelings and open up about them and when I do I become very emotional and male the situation worse...ye dialog I hear " don't be so dramatic it's not a movie:

 

Anti depressants could help. Many of them cost less than the cost of a soft-drink or pan a day.

 

Nice one

 

That moment when everyone, everything around you seems positive except you is a sign of depression.
Depression can happen to anyone for any given reason. But it is curable, and with medication and life style changes you can feel better very soon.

Having said that, what you have written above is not strange, but true. All of us have passed "that moment" somewhere in our lives. But it doesn't stop us from living or making peace with that.

If I am to think my life the way you have narrated, I have a big list to write here.
Sometimes biggest reasons such as why my father died when all my friends have their father living with them?
Why I am sick and forced to live with medicines when all my friends are free from such sickness/pains
Why I had to give up my career to settle with something I don't like, when my peers are enjoying that great career
Why my co-sisters are accepted easily by PILs when I had a hard time battling with them in the past
and the list has no end.
But I chose to see the positives around me. For each action, there is a reaction too.
My dad died, but he died peacefully and we are healed quickly and mom is alive and we are a complete family now
I am sick, but my sickness is not something deadly. I am rich enough to get the medication and live with this
My new career is not great, but I am free to get out of this and find my preferred career right now
My co-sis were lucky to enter their wedlock easily, but they struggle with TTC and other stuff with pain. While my struggles were all past, and I am happily settled.

So, there is always some positivity around. Just that how you chose to see them.

 

If you are experiencing these for more than 2 weeks, please get in touch with a Psychiatrist, you may be going through depression.
You will need medication and therapy and will feel better soon.
Pain areas: in the back
Mood: anxiety, apathy, general discontent, guilt, hopelessness, loneliness, loss of interest, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, mood swings, panic attack, sadness, or emotional distress
Behavioural: agitation, excessive crying, irritability, restlessness, self-harm, or social isolation
Sleep: early awakening, excess sleepiness, insomnia, or restless sleep
Whole body: excessive hunger, fatigue, or loss of appetite
Cognitive: lack of concentration, slowness in activity, or thoughts of suicide
Psychological: depression or repeatedly going over thoughts
Also common: constipation, headache, poor appetite, substance abuse, or weight loss

Hugs to you and all the best.