I wish this lain goes away I thought things were getting better With singing Gayatri Mantra With reciting So Purkh With 10 minute meditation twice a day But today I am getting hirrible thoughts again It's been more than two years since the betrayal And now I imagine myself being aggressive with people who will be nice to me in India Because they simply cannot be trusted I'm not saying people in USA are saints Because people are people everywhere It's just that different situations shows a persons colors Regardless of person's race, religion, color, ethnicity I wish for this pain to go away Money will not help Virtuous husband will not help Obedient children will not help I wish this pain go away It especially comes up in the kitchen and when I am doing hard exercise. honestly I am looking for 10-day Vippassana retreat nearby ..... This is too much to bear.....,.. At one point early this year I was in love with Punjabi culture, making paintings. As soon as I found other interests that love stopped. Maybe it wasn't love, it was just a mirage. i just wish this pain go away and I get peace .... it's worth more than all the wealth in the world....
I wish the same... for you, me, those who are separated, in the process of separation after abuse, and for those who are still struggling with such people without knowing a way out... May God bless us all with Peace and happiness... May God bless those who abuse with sense of humanity and heart... We were in pain when we were hurt... We are pain when we came out... it takes longer to heal Scars and thoughts won't ever go away Hope they will fade out ...