My DD loves me more then anything in this whole world. Her father has not been with us either because of his travel or sickness. My father has been very close to her too but he was infrequent visitor. So she has had consistent relationship only with me. I try to do as much as i can to her but now i have reached a point of saturation of motherhood. i am hardly alone. am not being able to do things which i want to do. Sometime i even send her to see TV :_(. I have started loosing patience with her. She whines when we get her ready for the school. She behaves just like other kids but i am not able to cope up now. I have started blabbering (just like my mother :_( ) even when she is around. I hate this so much. I know i am not doing justice with her but i i just dont have strength. she just sings mommy mommy for everything she needs. I hate to admit that sometimes the mommy word sounds like hammer. I am not a great cook but i try to be innovative for her and when she dislikes something i get hugely disappointed. Sometimes she doesnt even understand why is mom angry. This tears my heart when i see the confusion in her eyes and i cant explain to her why i am upset. sometimes i just say that i am missing papa. and then she comes over and hugs me and gives me kisses making me even more guilty. i dont know what did i do to deserve so much love. i am just making it complicated for my innocent child. Please God give me strength and forgive me for being me.