Hi friends, I am a 30 years old married lady.I am an engineering graduate and working in a private concern .My husband is 37 years old and also an engineering graduate working for an private concern.He is a physically challenged man. Mine is a Love c arranged marriage.Our happy life started some 8 years back and now we have 2 kids(7 and 4 years) After our second child, the sexual interest is drastically reduced and it happens once in a month that too out of my interest.. He wont initiate or induce me.... Only i have to do.... Three four times i do but after that i used to get frustration and i feel ashamed on myself.So i wont call him for sex..He wont bother about that.. All extra things like movie,shopping n all will happen as usual...only problem is in bedroom. He wont share his office issues with me..99% at home he spend with computer.Only after i sleep with my kids in bedroom, he ll come inside. He spent some 15 to 20 min with kids.. for me that to a big noooo. Every month after my periods, 10 th day till 20, very tough days.... I ll be longing for sex.But i wont get.. I ll get more tension and i showed them on my children.(Could not show it in kitchen/cooking)(During morning tension,homeworks, etc...) Sometimes i used to ask him Why are you not interested in me? or sex? He said, you are so fat, and throwing hard words to children, shouting at them, ...so i m not getting mood.... The answer killed me actually.After that i felt like divorcing him or part from his, so that he ll be happy.Because i love him soooo much .i want him to be happy always and i should not be a barrior for his happiness.... I have some questions with me.. Please guys save my life. Give some suggestions or advices. 1)Are all male like this after 35 years? 2) From starting of our love, i was fat, then why he is highlighting it now? 3)All my tension,shoutings 75% because of unsatisfied sex.Why he is not understanding this? 4)I feel, He is escaping from me not avoiding me.Why? 5)Is his physical disability the reason for this? 6)Is y sexual wish wrongthing? 7)Monthly once sex with compulsion is right? Please friends, send me sugessions What should i do?