Hi, I have been married for last 4 years, out of which for two years I was studying and living in a different town. In these 4 years, we have had fights like every couple and on topics ranging from in-laws to going out etc. Except, that the last fight that we had, we were ready to part. Except that later my husband stopped me, and apologized for his wrong behavior (Not going into details here). My problem is that I am unsure whether I want to be with him for rest of my life. There was a time when I was sure that I wanted to spend my life with him and that is why I left India\job\family, just to be with him. But now, I am not sure. Sometimes, I think if I had a job and was independent, I would have never stayed with him. It is not that he is not nice, but because he has hurt(emotionally) me so much in the past 4 years, that I cannot trust him ever again, so forget love. I do not feel any emotional or physical attachment. Even if I stay with him, I do not know if I want to have kids with him. In case I do for some reason, I feel I should ask him to promise me that in case we separate, he will never take kids from me. I cannot decide if the last 4 years was mistake and whether I should continue this mistake, or change my life. Do any of you ever thought like this ? Or am I thinking too much ? Please help !!