Thank you everyone for taking the time to respond. It was so interesting that a lot of people here found it 'shocking' that my parents expected me to go back to India just to get married. I started to feel so unhappy at having been such a failure of a woman that I couldn't even manage to get married like everyone else. And that's another reason that I want to walk away from this process completely. It's destroying my self-esteem. I want to focus on things in my life that bring me joy. I guess what I'm getting from here is that I have resign myself to keep putting my parents off the same way as I have been doing. But I think all of your responses have helped me see that I have no reason to feel guilty about it.