How addicted are you to your love ?

Happy2be · Apr 3, 2012

DH always used to say ...from the days of our affair- " My love is like oldage..it can never get a setback and would increase with time." We were young then...mature enough for our age..responsible enough...but still I used to laugh over this sentence of his, one, whos very poor at expressing...words are not in his dictionary of expression. He's a jolly person...naughty and at times I have really felt annoyed n told him that I would want to hear his words of love...keeping naughtiness aside...He would try and then himself start rolling over his trial
In the past 6 yrs of our married life, each day...each month..each season...each situation, has made me realise how true that one sentence of his was and is...how much heavier and how much more value it holds than any 'n' number of expressions.
I AM SO ADDICTED TO HIS LOVE...TO MY LOVE...TO HIM....
I wish to go to my mum's place after a gap of few weeks or 2 mths or so..she's local..but then there lies an exact amount of irritation in me as does the happiness of going to her just for a weekend. Each time, I try to hunt for reasons for him to come along with me...its been this way since first mth of marriage He's like a son to them.We never have any personal talks that cannot be done in his presence. They love him to be around and are equally addicted to him being with me for the stay. I keep missing him whenever he doesnt accompnay and I make it sure he comes by the next day..lol or else I get back!! DD misses her Papa too.
We have been working together. I changed my career soon after marriage ...we felt life is too short to be away for 9 hrs a day and come back tired to each other. A very very common question we get now n then - "Dont you guys feel bored and jailed being together the entire day?" SMile is the answer we have. He joined a group lately and I miss him when he's away for those 6 hrs those few days of the week!!
Working in the same room..on the same table..we keep chatting on the msgr..rofl..really be it project discussion...planning..teasing.
We are around each other when the other is busy...mmm..im in the kitchen, he'll come after every 15-20 min...he's working in his studio at home..I'll be there every 20 min..however much work we have in person.

There are loads loads loads to count NOT FORGETTING one - He's always by my side when I'm low, physically or mentally. I can never look upon any one else as the first person except HIM. I feel so safe n secure in his arms, whatever bad phases I've been through. My heart murmurs a song always when I'm sick, too sick -"Jaane kyu dil jaanta hai...tu hai to I'll be all right...."

Have been quite unwell since last 1 mth and both of us are just waiting for the day when my doctors would say..YOU ARE FINE. NO MORE MEDICINES FROM TODAY!!!
I've been hearing from him endless times-
Tell me what you feel like eating (any hour of the day), I'll get it for you ..from anywhere.
I feel you're my baby..I wish I could have been able to hide you within me n keep you safe.
If it would have been possible, I would have taken over all your pains.
You are my kuchikoo..my pumpkin...my etc etc etc...
Let your medicines get over and I'll you out for an awesome vacation.
Don't worry...MAIN HU NA!!

Many more...sensitive, teasing,loving...all kinds of stuff. And today morning...me, rolling in the bed in extreme pain....he helped send DD to school...when he called the doc..and doc asked for some more tests..I was in tears...He says I look funny to him when tears roll down my eyes..He's poor at words!! I know funny means..he feels bad and helpless about it :-( And I feel guilty. I get in tears in extreme situations bcos I feel guilty...I can bear any pain when he's there with me...I feel guilty of making him suffer mentally..He works hard...loves us so much...takes care of me and DD almost as one. HE is ONE PERFECT MAN!! and we love him so much...so much..so much...I feel bad n I cant help crying and he catches me red-handed almost always(but I rarely cry)!!

I am so addicted to my love...I find life toooo short to be with him...How addicted are you to your love??

Divyavignesh · Apr 3, 2012

Beautifully written, no words! I feel that even i should start admiring my hubby for everything he does to me .

Cheers

Suryan03 · Apr 3, 2012

WOW Happy2be,

You two are lucky to have each other. Your writing is so full of love and understanding each other to the core. HOPE YOU FEEL WELL VERY SOON AND HOPE YOU BOTH HAVE A WONDERFUL VACATION !

sbonigala · Apr 4, 2012

Hi Happy2Be!!
Am very happy for you - May god bless you both with many more lovely years together.

I married for 7 years now. I have known him for 10 years.
We have been together from college to work. We work in the same team now though under different managers.

When I read the post heading, I had many points to put in the post. After reading your post, I am choked.
Somehow i become very emotional everytime the love of spouse is talked about.

He just passed by my cubicle and he raised his eyebrows - smiled at me - a smile for which I can just die - a smile for which i fell in love 10 years ago - the same smile makes sure that I fall in love everytime I see him.

He is less expressive - one day i fought with him tht he never tells me really what does he feel for me!! he just looked into my eyes and said, " darling, there is nothing called "me" still existing in me. I am nothing but you. I cannot tell u more than this".
I was numb for a while for what he said. Very short but very very touching. Can never forget that sentance.

People ask me too - are u not bored of each other .. does it not feel suffocating!!?? For us, we are enjoying being together round the clock - not everybody gets this chance to be with the loved one 24X7

P.S you are in our prayers and you will get well soon. Let us know where did u go for vacation

upfsabari · Apr 4, 2012

Hi Happy2be,

I had choked once I completed your post. Very true.. My prayers are there for you..!! You will recover soon.! Long life for your love..! God bless you both. !

Thanks for such a positive post.. My hubby is in onsite and I'm missing him every moment.. Though we are not around 24*7, I miss him a lot.

@Divyavignesh, Yes, I too have to learn the art of admiring my hubby. I used to admire, but still not fully.

ann74 · Apr 4, 2012

Hi Happy2be,

May god bless you and your family and may you get well soon. I was so moved by your writing..yes as DivyaVignesh mentioned...I too feel like admiring my DH for everything he does.....I am married for 15yrs now and we had been knowing eachother for 20yrs...though we studied in same college and same branch we were in different fields....I had always wished to work with him. And now after so many years my dream became true..for the last 1 year we are working together....and it is a pleasure...All my friends ask if we aren't bored of being together all the time but we too just smile...
You know as the years pass we get so involved with our work, kids and other resposibilities that we stop expressing our love to our better half and in most of the case the couple become matured enough to understand eachother and go by the flow of life. But I always feel that the passion remains and it gets energised everytime when u express ur love and make him feel how much u care and love him...
I am also very addicted to my DH and feel lonely even when i am with my parents....Thats the power of his Love...
After our wedding I left India and was with my DH in Kuwait. One day I was missing my Dad and he caught me with my eyes filled with tears. He told me "May be somewhere in my love there is something lacking...I know I cannot replace your Dad but I couldnt make u see him in Me". I was so touched by his love and concern...
I love him very much Even my kids feel we are the craziest couple in the world..

You made my day Happy2be...Thanks a lot.
Get well soon.
God bless you
Anu

Happy2be · Apr 5, 2012

thanx suryan...

Happy2be · Apr 5, 2012

Anu..I can truly understand what u r saying and what all u arent...bcos for love like all of ours...no words r just enough to express God bless.

Happy2be · Apr 5, 2012

Thanks for the wishes upf and all friends here.... really life engrosses us in so much rubbish..which we socially name as responsibilities and that makes us waste so much time of ours...I believe n I try always to keep chrishing every simple pleasure..this is sumthing I have been talking of a lot a lot...simple pleasures...mmm...for me n couples like all of us....rolling over some funny scenes together....lying in each others arms...chori chori glancing at each other till 2 in night even when you have to wake up at 5.30....moving out for a bike ride may be just for grocery and being back with nothing but a Cassatta in hand...where would I hold the grocery when im hugging him tight...lol....playing rolly polly with DD in bed for that half an hour of the day...listening to DD's spicy talks n smiling to each other..purchasing that fancy pencil box for her ...Rs.200 and saying GOOD JOB to each other for being able to get her one..cos we couldnt get one in our times...I love to keep his things ready when he's supposed to go out somewhere...I love when he gets irritated and yet allows me put the face pack on his face once a Year...just bcos I say ..I love you sho much...alongwith that...lol....I love each time when he answers my question -"what d u feel like having today (for any meal)?"...And the same answer since last 6 yrs - "Darling...I'll have anything you mix with your love!!!"
Awww....cumon ladies...move on...we all r busy..just text a msg..let him wonder..why did all of a sudden u send an I LOVE YOU!!
we dont need any special occassions to celebrate..each time being together is special in itself!!

PS - thanx for all wishes for my health too... Had my USG's all tests and MRI's done and doc says still few mths to go...Its been more than 2 yrs now...and waste of all that time is what kills me inside..but we have been smart enough to steal every possible moment and cherish it...SO be you all God Bless!!

Happy2be · Apr 5, 2012

Shalu, I was just imagining the situation as I read your post...u must have felt like leaping at him n giving him a tight hug at that raised eyebrow smile of his....Im sure hahaha