Had high hopes, feeling discouraged right now

I'm trying to study for IT certifications for continuing education.

It especially helps to build my knowledge and self-confidence.

There are forums where people who study for these exams can present for an hour.

When I present, I like to get creative, and talk as if the person was a friend. I make it informal, include silly pictures, animated gifs, and music clips

- as long it pertains to the subject matter
- as long as it helps others understand


First time I did this, I got lot of positive accolades.

Just now I did this second time, and I really put my heart into it, but I didn't get any positive accolades.

And when I asked to present again I was told that they need to

- slow down the voluntary presentations
- give chance to other people to present (i.e. those studying for same exam)
- maybe another opening will be in mid-Nov


Maybe I am over-reacting. I am feeling like deflated balloon right now.


Has this ever happened to anyone?



On the other hand, if God wanted to somehow take my family and I to India this fall and plans are in the works for it (I really don't know how, only God makes these things possible), then I can totally understand why God allowed this to happen.

I really wished somehow I can go to India, and enjoy.

I really really really wish this. I will be happy to go for a month at least. Visit some places, spend some quiet time, really take in the beauty of the place

 

I am really working toward this.

Trying to learn to take more responsibilities at home (I only work and study, and do some cooking), especially with finances

Yes, that's what I was looking for. Because in first presentation, everyone liked.

 

I'm gonna get a YouTUBE channel to post presentations.

Will get practice, and help others who are also studying ....

 

You know something. Now I realized, towards the end of my presentation yesterday, I was starting to feel a bit subconscious because I didn't hear laughter or anything, so the last few minutes I might have fizzled.

Hence the downward spiral. And perhaps the online audience would have sensed it.

Guess I need lot of practice, and need to feel comfortable improvising.

But the moderator of the event did say I was brave


Now I downloaded freeware for recording the screen and sound from laptop's speakers, hope I can create and post video tutorials on newly created YouTube page...