Despicable Me - Cultivating Self-compassion

Sun: Yin Yoga. Came back from the class with an energized body and a crushed soul. I still don't want to be alone with my mind. But booked a few more classes.

 

You make total sense, wise one. The link describes what happened. Except it happens pretty much every time I hold an easy pose and my mind can wander.

 

Mon: Something that I thought was all set, fell apart in an unexpected way. I told myself that everything will be okay. We may find new, possibly positive things due to this. Decided to concentrate on the long term, instead of panicking and taking hasty short cuts.

Tues: Yoga class. The Tue/Thurs yoga classes kick my butt. But the most difficult pose is the shavasana.

Wed: Finally completed a task that has been pending for months - one that I had no business putting off. There are still loose ends and it needs constant updates, but the deed is done and it gives me some peace.

 

Thurs: Yoga class
Fri: Listless day. Weather was pleasant, did some gardening.

I read earlier this summer that we need to examine the metrics by which we measure our success. My metric has always been productivity.
The days I do all the things I planned to do, I feel okay. The days I don't, I don't feel okay.
I don't know what to change it to. And I fear that if I do change it, then I will just sit around and drool into a cup.

 

Thank you for the links and for writing here. I have a yin class tomorrow and will try my best to apply this.

 

I was sick the past few days. No anxiety, no bargaining. Just read a book.

Today, on a forum that I frequent, someone wrote down their thoughts and I could have written the text myself.

 

Why should this have mattered to me? Why should I find solace in the fact that I am not alone in my misery? Not very nice, I am.
I was having a tough day until I read it, and then felt so much lighter. Thank you, stranger. I hope you feel better.

The day got progressively better and then we had some unexpected guests. And pizza!