Another Cycle Of Events...

At the onset, wishing everyone on this group A Very Happy, Healthy and Prosperous New Year. Another year has gone and a brand new year has started. For most of us, the start of a new year is a moment of rejoice, fun and a hope that this year would be better in all ways than the year gone by. But for some like me, a new year is just another year. After my husband passed away, any new year can never be better than the years when he was with me. So for a single mother like me, a new year is like a trauma as I dread the painful feeling of going through the cycle of events. Events like our birthdays, my anniversary, the day he passed away, all the festivals etc., when I miss him deeply. Its not that I don't miss him on other days.. infact I miss him every day.. I think of him many times a day but those events are more painful as his absence pains and hurts deep down.. and instead of being merry on the birthdays and festivals, I would actually be mourning. So according to me a New Year is kind of another cycle of events wherein me and my kids would again go through painfully thinking why did God take him away from us. When I see the wishes for a new year, it actually boils me down thinking whats all the hoopla about a new year.. afterall its just another year.