As Jogu07 has suggested, same my son says. He even asks me to start my own boutique to distract myself. They always ask me to do what ever I love doing to avoid conflicts. But now I need courage to do all this. Gardening and visiting religious ancient temples is the most that I love doing. Previously trVelling was not possible as he never financed me. My H feels this as luxury. At this stage of my life I do feel cheated from my husband. We both very rarely go out together. There is somewhere in my heart from where I still love him. No matter what but I care for him, and this comes out as my frustration and pain. Because he never values all this.