Reflection And Gratitude ...

I was absent from this site for a quite some time. I am engulfed into my studies and motherly duties. However, when I was reflecting this year, one of the most precious moment was winning the finest post and the loved ones I have connected with in this site. I was able to feel the connection with them even though I haven’t met them in person. Therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to wish you and yours a very happy new year. I am going to try to be more present in this site as the knowledge I gained from you all is valuable to me. This year had been so educative for me. I tried to pen down the emotions I felt while reflecting this year as below,

INSECURITY- This year due to my research, often I felt insecure whether am I on track with my job? will I solve the problems so that I can reach the final point? When my colleagues talk about their finishing line, I got anxious when I will come reach the end point? I have accepted feeling insecure. I have looked inward to see whether am I being performing at my best? Given the circumstances, looking after two kids and run a family without any extended family support I felt that I was doing my best. It made me feel grateful.

ACCOMPLISHMENT – Since I was a child, with my parents guiding I was an all-rounder except for excelling in individual sports. This year, I took a challenge upon me and did the 66-mile cycle race and completed it successfully. Towards that Journey, I broke my left arm but that did not stop me completing my goal. I learnt what persistence and forbearance means with this process of entering a cycling race.

PROUD - I felt proud when Harry performed on a big stage along with ‘Joseph and his amazing technic colour coat’ team. This was unexpected. Fifteen years ago, same troop visited Aberdeen and Jan and I went to the show. We didn’t even imagine when this troop come next to the city, our son will be part of it. Simply grateful.

BREAKING BARRIERS: Ethan is an introvert in some respects. He doesn’t like to be on a stage or perform in front of people. This year, we enrolled him into a poetry competition. He memorised the poem and recited in front of the judges. I was so proud of him that he learned to break his barriers and come out of it.

MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING - Rapport between Jan and I developed to another level. I understand him more and he understands me more. He opened a lot in the last year and at times he accepts his flaws. I accept my flaws and we both discussed at times how to deal with that. I also understood what Love means for me and I understand what to focus. I have also felt the love and compassion from many and I am eternally grateful for that.

As I close this year, my heart is filled with gratitude and I am hoping to welcome this new year with hope. Thank you all for your blessings and teachings and I wish you all a very happy new year!

New Years Day. A fresh start. A new chapter in life waiting to be written. New questions to be asked, embraced, and loved. Answers to be discovered and then lived in this transformative year of delight and self-discovery. Today carve out a quiet interlude for yourself in which to dream, pen in hand. Only dreams give birth to change.

‘Sarah Ben Breathnach’

 

My dearest @Srama
Thank you ever so much. I did miss you. You know what? My first purchase of this year is Simple Abundance. I have started reading this today. Thank you for directing me. You make me feel happy and I am thankful. Have a very happy new year with your loved ones
Vani

 

Dear @kkrish mam

Thank you ever so much and your blessings means a lot. Thank you and wish you and yours a very happy new year

Vani

 

My dearest Sir, @Thyagarajan
Thank you so much. Your blessings means a lot and I needed that. I love her quote and it resonated with me so much. Thank you Sir. With your blessings I will thrive this year.
Vani