Not Able To Go For Job But Always Thinking About What To Do

Yes since childhood I am introvert and afraid of small issues.After my marriage my mother in law want to dominate me there is nothing wrong at my side.so she started nagging about my dowry by comparing with others.This is her problem not mine.So I want to change myself first.thanks a lot

 

I think it's better to don't think much and be happy with kids.Atleast we ourselves feel as good mothers.

 

Hi thank you all for your advices.yesterday was my 33rd birthday.I was thinking whole day and I observed one thing. I want to share my thoughts.It might be silly for all of you but I created it as big problem.As I said earlier my mother in law only problem. My in laws side they are maintaining relationship with more people. Mil only compared my dowry with others and tortured me. She thought of I am useless.she gathered each information about us by frequently giving missed calls on weekends and share each information with relatives.Almost all are same kind wife should get more money , rice, clothes, groceries for monthly from parents.when we go to mil place they also enquirer about my clothes wether they purchased my husband or my parents. My husband only getting more salary among all their relatives.so they jealous about me that with less dowry she enjoying ).So they poisoned my mil mind .In 2005 in our area dowries are 10 lakhs cash and gold extra. We gave 4 lakhs.My in laws only enquirer about me in that time they said we want only girl no dowry(that time they said because they are facing problems with first daughter in law nobody is giving daughters to their second son. We don't know all these then)so they almost searching for only good girl without dowry.They want calm girl.My parents were searching for a teacher groom for me.when our marriage arranged in our side relatives also keep on saying with less dowry she got good rich man.All these words influenced me so I think my dowry is less so I should be good calm wife.I should not give answers to in laws if they are rude also.As I am having pros my pregnancy also late I conceived in 6th year of marriage. In those days my husband support me a lot .we went to big hospitals he didn't tell to their parents as I am having problem.After marriage we were in Hyderabad more relatives are coming and enquire about all expanses and how we spend on weekend my mil also frequently called on weekends.(only missed calls).

So all these are reasons I felt I am not suitable to these man .If I wear good dress means mil asked who purchased this your father or my son.My mil and their relatives keep on enquire about us so my mind totally changed(in that time I was also in depression without kids)So I was only choosing less cost clothes .Oncekids born my weight is 83 kgs.Now I am postponing to take high cost clothes. Now I am having thyroid and pcod problem I am in depression.
Recently we came to Usa I will slowly trying to not respond to mil words. Now she started enquire my son like this if he said we went out means she asked like this
Your mother came with you or you and your daddy went? What you purchased. For festivals your mother take dress or not like this?If my husband drop my son to school also big problem
For her because I am enjoying by staying at home.Even in video call also she keep an eye on my clothes.I think because of her only I am not doing shopping for myself.My husband side no problem.
I India weekends around 6.30 pm only she used to call weather we are going to movie or stay at home.If we go to movie means we wasters money. I think because of her psycho mentality me and my husband suffered. My husband not able to give answer to his mother that's the problem. But he is good person.4 years back my fil passed away if my husband give answers means she will cry.So he is not opening his mouth.Slowly I will change thank you all.

 

thank you radv.my mother in law's parents house near to them she got clothes groceries from their parents.my fathers parents also forced my mother to bring everything from parents. These might be effect my thoughts. With all our indus ladies friends I got good advices. I Will change my mindset.