bonding with eight month old baby mothers please guide me.

Dear friends, I am having eight month old baby boy. From the day he was born i am not finding him attached to me. He will calm down once my mum or mil will take him up but once he sees me he will start crying. I am very much attached to him and i love him a lot. But he used to go away from me always. He used to search me only at the time of feeding and sleeping. Other time even when i used to spend time with him like playing, singing lullabies he will listen but start crying within short span of time. I used to kiss him, cuddle him etc to make him comfortable. But he is not comfortable with me. He is comfortable with all. Now he had started crawling. All my apartment people are very much attached with him and he too expresses the same to them. I am not jealous. But when i go there to take him he cries and refuses to come. He will go to my hubby a lot and he loves him. But not me. He used to search me just at the time of his bm feed. Sometime he used to play with me but othertime he used to cry. I am very much scared of keeping with him alone with me as he used to cry a lot and show some signs of resistance to be with me. I dont know how to bond with him. I want my baby to be attached with me. I am ready for everything. I want to show him that i am his mother. He should smile by seeing me. He should be happy to come to me. He should love me. Kindly guide me.

 

I am not working currently...I am finding him very difficult to handle whenever he is with me...I used to give him toys and do all sort of things that my mil and mother will do...But he doesn't like the same...I used to give him night cerelac. But he wants to take the same only in our neighbour's house. They are nice people with no kids. They are nearing age 60's. He dont want to have cerelac at our home. If i struggle and distract him he will refuse to eat or cry. But the moment he goes there he used to have it and return with smiling face. One day they went to their hometown. I found it very tough time to handle. Meanwhile even in the day time he refuses to have porridge at our home and want to move to their home. Somehow i am not for the same. I am really not that kind of a reserved person. Even in my school days i used to get along with kindergarden kids and they used to run and come to me once they saw me. I am having good number of friends circulation also. I am not a moody type. But my mil is happy that my kid is attached to her than me and she shows that symbolically in her actions and that is making me upset a lot. My husband used to tell me " see how my son is attached to me". I am feeling really low. Kindly guide me. Even apartment people says " this kid never wants mummy...he never search even her..he is dad's pet...he is our pet". I agree to it. Yes he is like that. But i cant control myself. I cant be magnanimous in this aspect. I want my kid to bond with me. I want him to search and come to me with interest and love. I am not doing any household work nowadays. I am always with my kid like a mad and playing with him only. But i am a useless mother.