MY TRYST WITH LOVE(part4--final)

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I dint know what went wrong.

Seeing him with other girl would be hurting but seeing with a best friend was the worst nightmare.

Both had hidden it from me.

He called me that night, but i cut the call and left a message telling--"Hope you had a good Date with Veena".

Next day met him, but i dint respond to him. I told him very frankly i am not going to talk to him ever.

I was answering to Veena in one words.......she understood i am angry.
I was very sad to get back to loveless life back again. But felt that was better than to get hurt again:bonk.
I dint want to meet them everyday and feel bad.........so after a trip to the main office i changed my postings in the coming month.

I continued with gym but never wore that date dress for second time. I dint have any motivation to lose baby fat henceforth.

I got to know from a common friend that both have broken up and not in talking terms from few days. Dint know whether to be happy or sad.

I was very happy and even imagined it to be telecast in t.v as flash-news.....

But when i remembered that they were my best friends, i felt sad. What can i do?? I m not in talking terms with them......whom shall i console?? Ex-Boyfriend who treated me as trash at the last moment?? Or Ex-girlfriend who made smart moves at the right time??

At last i consoled myself telling ----they will be fine on their own.......bcoz they are good at Finding Date At Last Minutes!!!!

One fine day,got a call from home........my 12yr old Puppy(pet dog) has expired.

I couldn't believe it. Mom told me to take off and reach home for final rituals.

I couldn't control my grief.......yes this time i cried like a baby on the spot after cutting the call.I wanted it to be a bad dream, but it wasn't.

I dint want to see Puppy in that condition........so informed home that i am not strong enough to see him in that stagnant position.

After postings, just went to college terrace.

My friends were consoling me , but i was busy weeping.

At 6pm i told them to carry on.......everyone left home.

In few minutes i saw someone nearing me......it was Sandy. I told him "I am fine, you can go home".....but he never left.......he dint utter a word.

It was almost nearing 8pm, got a call from brother.....he said that one of his friend is coming to pick me from college. After 10min his friend came, i left home. I dint say a word to Sandy before leaving. Why should i?? He doesn't deserve that kind of formality from my side.

After reaching home, dint speak to anyone......just went to my room and slept off.

When i woke up it was 6 in the morning.........checked phone.........many calls from friends........and majority from Sandy.

Wanted to take break from college but the thought of sitting at home and seeing gate(where Puppy used to sit tight like a security guard) scared me. So, got ready and left to college.

In college i sat in a corner and avoided everyone.

My friends adjusted with my behavior and told me to take my own time. But Sandy visited me regularly........cracked all jokes even though i din't bother.......he brought food from canteen but i never ate.

Why did God take my Puppy so soon from me?? Cant he leave us alone for 70yrs??.......these questions kept on pestering me.

He always greets me whenever i reach home........he plays with me on weekends.......he licked my cheeks till i push him far away......he has been with me for 12yrs......its difficult to tell what was he to me.........i had mentioned about him even in census survey......i never thought he will leave me.........i dint think about his life span even once.

At home everyone was sad and food was not prepared from three days........no one spoke about anything at all.

Finally mom arranged for family meeting and convinced us to move on and she will get me new dog.

I dint want another dog........i only wanted only Puppy back........i hoped everyday God should reverse the time machine and give his life back.

I was the one who dint recover in my family......all were back to normal life........i dint know how to lead a normal life without remembering him.

He always plays with me only.........somewhere i felt i was busy with my life and dint care much for him in past few weeks(after Date episode)........on his last day he had few tears in his eyes while i was telling bye to him before leaving to college.........i thought some dust would have entered and caused tears.........may be he was telling a final bye?? may be he was telling me to stay with him on that last day??..........i feel all the more guilty when i analyse those things.

I was not out of the misery completely........but i had learned few lessons from it.

Dint want to lose things when they are in front of my eyes.........i wanted to care for every one who is in my life. I dint want to be selfish anymore.

After few days was thinking about date saga--

Does all love end in happy ending??

What if i had gone on date and later broke off with him, like it happened with Veena?
I would have been in deep trouble then......may be God saved me from another hearth break??

Love is to be given wholeheartedly and not a thing to be taken forcefully??

May be i should have spoken with him and made things clear,instead of dreaming about Feb 14th.........may be watching too many romantic movies clogged my sense of thinking??

Am i angry because of missing him as Boy Friend??

Or angry that i dint get to have food in restaurant with him??

Was it my hunger pangs which made me to react emotionally?? (i had not carried lunch box believing he will buy food during date.........i should never leave home without lunch box even if i am invited to marriages,henceforth).

If my stomach was filled, could i have had different effect??

May be i have to blame my sharp eyes.....why on earth it noticed him near restaurant........if the government had installed Tv with cable connection in every bus, i would have not seen them.......whom to blame??

Am i angry bcoz i did more work out and got only pain and no gain(date)??

I have to go remove that paper near treadmill reading "No Pain No Gain"........may be my instructor liked my baby fat and my determination for work out and prayed for date to get cancelled??mg:
If i ask Sandy i will get many more reasons but i wasn't ready to listen those truthful answers.....so dint want to ask him.

Keeping the grudge will only hurt me more and not him........what if i become devadas.......so thought of putting an end to my date/dateless story.

Next day met Sandy and spoke to him.

I knew it was my mistake for not communicating regarding date.

We spoke about Puppy..... we went canteen had vada.......we never spoke about what went wrong. I dint want to lose a friend in him.( He was with me when i was weeping about Puppy ........even though i was rude to him, he sat there with me......he was the only one who bought food for me.........yes he ditched me but he dint do so when i was sad ).

I even spoke to Veena that afternoon.

My college term was almost coming to end.

I met Sandy and gave him that Date gift...........he asked me whether i am fine to go out with him for dinner.......i told him i m fine as long as its not a Date!!

We went to dinner........just spoke about future dreams........i dont know what happened, all of a sudden he held my hand and said sorry for everything . Both of us were in tears.

I told him everything is fine......dont forget to pay the bill just by showing dummy tears!!!......he burst in to laughter.

We had a normal conversation like before.........i told him to pay consultation charges for selecting clothes for him........he said "i cant pay u for making me look like Zebra".

We wished each other good luck and promised to stay in touch.

Lastly when i called him..........he was doing fine professionally.

I asked him about marriage........he said he will never marry in his life, he is tired of finding true love.

(I was thinking-----dint u really see me??)

I wanted to tell him to choose correct girls before taking them on DATEHarhar........but said-----life is full of compromise, find a suitable girl and marry. You will find a true love in her over a period of time.

He said he will try.......

He promised to meet me on his next visit to the city.

I decided--- i m a good human being......blah blah.......but never a Date material.....:bang

I erased that word and never entertained anyone-else with that dating gametsk.

After Puppy left i knew whom i loved and cared in life.

Never felt bad for thing which i cant control. Just led a simple life.............i was at peace with myself.....never complicated life. I was happy with baby fat.........happy with who i am.

Dint buy another dog.

His departure created a big change in my life. Was thankful to God for selecting us as the owners for him for 12long years. I hope we treated him well and he chooses our family in next birth if given a chance again.

Yes now i agree.....love is not be seen in one person......God has given it in many forms. Everything that happens is for a reason. At least i think so to convince myself:hide:.


Thank you Friends for being with me through all the parts........:thankyou2:

Happy Valentines day in advance.

 

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Dear Narmadha,

thanks for liking it.

 

She first catch me only........

 

Thanks for liking it dear.
May be we should believe in Karma.....

 

Thank u dear Varhem.